I don't know your feelings, but I get very triggered sometimes and then the painful memories just snowball, and I'm completely crushed. I imagine it's something on the same spectrum… Hang on in there. This too shall pass, right? Flashbacks suck ass.
Thanks all, and thanks Alicia, yes it sounds same as you experience.
Nobody I know understands this, they've all paid off their mortgages or have plenty of money. It's so demoralising and degrading. And I'm in this situation because someone did the dirty on me and I end up paying for it for the rest of my life.
And don't tell me to look on the bright side because for the past 9 years I've had this day in day out. I don't belong anywhere and no one wants me and I continually get used and walked over and mocked.
I hate my life and I can't change it because in this world you need money and I have none. And I work hard and am a good person but it makes no difference. And it's all one man's fault and I will hate him for the rest of my life.
You are a good person and I'm sure you a good family member and a friend, so with this in mind, there is no shame in asking for help if there is someone who can. I used a man with a van instead of a removals firm when I moved into my council flat.
You will get through this, Pen. When you do, you can look back and be proud. For now, one step at a time, prioritise your health. All pandas are cheering for you. Keep us posted.
I'm so sorry, Pen. I hope this difficult residential situation is temporary and you're able to move into someplace far better in the future.
Thank you all
Hope it was lovely
It certainly is to a lot of things!
Well, that's good about the job! I hope you find somewhere soon, and the right somewhere for you!
Aw, I'm sorry. There will be other houses.
I know Jeff, but the longer it goes on then the less selective I can be and I'll end up with whatever I can get rather than somewhere I want to be.
Best of luck, Pen!
Get a second opinion maybe? Someone who has no connection. Take a step back and evaluate the situation from there. Make a pros and cons list maybe, those help more than youd think
I agree with Gabriella, maybe looking to a neutral third party would help with dealing with the situation.
Green - woo! Glad you're feeling better and fingers crossed for a new home
Get well soon, dear Pen!
Rest up, Pen.
Aw, sorry to see this. I hope you recover soon!
I'm so sorry Pen - hope it ends soon!
Thank you everyone, think I'm turning the corner. Back to normal wailings soon 😉
Have you gotten help or been check out? You most likely have an ear infection, they really suck and hurt..
Big hugs, Pen - maybe you can get some stuff delivered so you don't have to go out? Feel better soon
But M has a problem with his boiler, can't get hot water out of one tap & is worried about it. FFS 🙄
Always good to know the cause! 😉
Yep, Ilisidi, I'm a wreck! 😞😂