I am confident you will find a solution. Remember that your current situation is temporary. Big hug 🤗
Despite things not being great for me right now, he is the one I want to see. He makes me laugh and makes me feel safe and cosy and comfortable. The rest I like but I'd give them all up for him. And there's my answer when I agonised about going.
I am glad I spent tonight with him. We wouldn't be missed at the do and I am sure we had a much better time with a takeaway curry and telly than a buffet, noise and boredom.
I'm glad you went, Pen. Walking is always better once you get out there.
Good choice, I'd do the same thing if I were you :)
https://flic.kr/s/aHsm8t9c7Z I didn't want to go yesterday but I went and really enjoyed it.
Great pics John, thanks for sharing 😘
I get this for sure. It never gets easier. I've been alone so long, you'd think it would be easier, but it isn't. :( *Huge hugs*
I get it too.
Oh no, that must be so stressful… Is there an actual threat or is it something they do just in case?
That is so true. Hope it works out how you want
Thanks all. @Alicia we can try and work out strategies but with only two months to turn things round it's looking quite tricky.
Sounds tough :( hope for the best outcome. X
Hugs, dear Pen! ❤️ I know this feeling so well.
Why ask me then if you don't like how I do it. Don't pick up my work and then tell me what I should do about it. Only one day to go and then she's on holiday, thank god.
She is very patronising to me. Rushes through work and is sloppy. Chops and changes from one task to another. Moans on about things and drags me into it. Roll on tomorrow 4pm.
Just to explain that I'm learning how to deal with emotions still and how it is overwhelming finding someone that I connect with so well and telling him about my financial worries and my social anxiety which may impact on us.
Sometimes you can't get everything out clearly face to face and I don't want either of us to feel not good enough for each other or hesitant with each other because I think we do just fine.
...so sometimes it felt a bit prickly between us. I still adore him. We had some more open and honest talk. But I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I can't be with anyone long term ever again.
I always find it hard to relate to people. I feel odd and unusual and simply an annoyance. Too much hassle and hard work. Don't know how much longer he can tolerate my peculiarity.
Haven't posted for a few days. Just didn't know what to say and everything seems wrong and uncomfortable.
Just say what's on your mind. This is a judge free place.
Keep going, this is just a bumpy bit of road.
Thanks everyone x
Everything seems wrong and uncomfortable...I feel that way all the time (a lot of the time anyway). I'm sorry things are awkward. :(
Thanks Jeff, I'm still learning how to interact with someone I've known on and off for 19 years! We are intimate now but it's not any easier just because you think you already know them.
I thought it would be comfortable and easy but it's not!
Relationships are never easy. It's a lot of work. The key is to always take care of yourself first then your partner. I'm learning from experience. You can't love someone if you don't love yourself. So go ahead and love yourself. You'll be happier
You can do the same thing on messenger
I didn't know either. Sounds like a fun guy! :)
Thanks all. He's always fun Cindy, I'm very lucky that he sticks around with an old grump like me.
People want me to do this sht and I'd rather the internet just broke and we can all go back to 1986.
Oh, yeah, people that blow up our phones and demand ( passively perhaps) that we be available all the time... Ugh. I hate it too. I'm on WA though. I just leave my phone in another room a lot XD
Pen, it depends what month in 1986 because I might not be born or even conceived... *Sends another demanding message to Alicia on messenger* (btw I'd like to change our chats to WhatsApp if that's ok because I hate messenger...)
Also Pen this song just came on shuffle... https://youtu.be/xPVQMEbsIFo
Nice bit of oompah pah in the morning, thanks John 😂
Very good you took some time for yourself!!
Well done, you!
I feel very grateful for the way things are going for me at the moment. If only my job situation was different but I just need to be patient. I am in a pondering frame of mind right now.
I keep notes of things I do with M and I've kept diaries and journals before but I need to get all the stagnant stuff out of my mind. Maybe this will help, I dunno.
All the stupid doubts and worries but also just things I want to remember or things I've heard and learnt. Would like to hear anyone else's views on this.
I used to do this but I annoyed myself by making everything so dramatic. These days I take in life slow and easy as possible, accepting uncertainty and embracing relativity. So MoodPanda satisfies my diary needs enough.
Still, each to their own I hope goes without saying. There's something relieving about self expression.
I've always found writing what I'm feeling to be very helpful. It just means I'm not penting it all up and has helped me calm down in some really tough times
Writing out your thoughts and feelings can be helpful and kind of cathartic in a way.