Seems ignoring me and forgetting about me is fine and yes that's what I'm used to so I will just blast my ears with music and f them all.
Not really a 6, more of a 3 because ios12 has also peed me off.
Maybe he deleted you out not intentionally?
@Anna, I would accept that if he had replied to my message on insta about a month ago but he ignored me then so it figures he just isn't fussed about keeping in touch, I'm fine with it, I don't need friends.
Same here, I also experience that and find those feelings odd, but don't do anything rash. Best regards, Xavier :)
I can really relate to this right now ❤️
Thank you Xavier, Jen, Natalie and Lydia, I appreciate you all <3
Thanks Panda chums x
That's so great you went out and met a friend :)
...about a relationship. Not sure I can be everything he wants me to be. My relationships since the ex have been fake, insane, wrong. This one would be normal, real and right. Feel out of my depth.
I feel like I just want to ignore him for a month or so. But I adore him and care for him I just want to be around him all the time. It's madness and yes, I'm an idiot when I've got what I so wanted.
It takes a while to get it right after a dysfunctional relationship(s). But you'll get there.
But what if I'm the problem. I am so insecure and my moods go all over the place. I'm sure it is hard for someone to handle when they are with me a lot. I know he's a bit insecure too but I feel inadequate all the time.
When I see friends it's every few weeks at the most. I am seeing M every week, maybe two or three times. He will suss me out and realise I am rubbish at being normal.
Maybe you don't need to be normal, maybe he likes you the way you are :) I sure hope so, because you're amazing!
Thanks Alicia, you are amazing too! He does like me because I'm quirky and different I suppose. But I'm always looking for the thing that's going to ruin it. I self sabotage a lot.
I've always held a firm belief that sooner or later everything goes to ***. So at some point I decided to at least enjoy myself before that happens and not think about it. It helps! Even makes everything not go to *** all of the time.
I think it's normal to be a bit apprehensive at the start of a new relationship. In fact, one could even say it's beneficial as you are evaluating the relationship and ensuring it suits your needs rather than rushing into it head first!
Don't be too hard on yourself! xx
Thanks Keeping. I'm kind of putting the brakes on after already doing that rushing! <3
Though it would be sweet to hear from M a little 😂
Enjoy your day Pen
Thanks all, and thanks Esther, I did! <3
I hope you enjoy your day
We really get on so well. Hardly any anxiety at all. I cooked us tea again and I restrained myself and kept it just cuddles. Really, really happy.
If anyone else suffers from such anxieties, please know you are not alone. It's just we don't all shout out “hey I'm terrified” when out in public. Hope Pandas have a good day. Pen x
I used to feel like that, too. In a way I think I've shut down a lot of my emotions not to feel that. You are brave for still feeling them and being yourself. <3
Thanks John, Jeff and Alicia x
Friends that do relationship stuff. It's plain weird. I can't deal and also will find it hard to be so public even with strangers but in my home city.
Can't you just ask him and have a honest conversation about this? It's a really important topic and would also drive me crazy. 🙁
He really struggles to talk about this kind of thing. I'm too wary that I'll scare him off. I like him so much I couldn't bear to lose him for a second time. I just have to put up with it. Thanks tho Lydia x
Maybe try to forget about the names and labels for things, and do things whatever they are when they feel right and comfortable. You can't read people's thoughts so just be yourself. That's the best one can do, so don't try to do the impossible.
As usual, John has good advice. Just go with it right now and don't worry what others think or say. Just enjoy it! Live in the moment and take what comes. Happy for you!
Yep, John's nailed it. It's not an easy thing to do though, I guess...
I want to be happy but I don't know how to be confident, sociable, normal in public. He will tire of me if I'm like this too much.
Basically what happened first time around could still happen even though I adore him. He wouldn't fight for me 😢