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4 Penelope P
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Nocturnal panic last night and leapt out of bed. Can't believe these are happening again. If it wasn't for work my life would be wonderful. I guess we see the problem but there's no fix.
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Metron A
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Same. Work problems are always harder to fix because they require more people to get involved usually. Good luck.

Jenny D
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4 Penelope P
2d ·
Want to get an early night but I know I'll end up waking up after an hour with a panic attack, heart racing and thinking I'm going to die. Fed up that these are back.
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5 Penelope P
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He leaves. I don't want him to go. I can't say what I really feel because I end up feeling like I demand too much. I want to be with him all the time and be closer to him. Breaks my heart every time.
Penelope P
3d ·

He never stays over. He never asks me to stay at his. I have no idea how we will ever move this on. He talks about us living together but I know it's just my dream that he uses to keep me hooked on him.

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Ask him to stay

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Penelope P
2d ·

I do John but he doesn't want to or just gives a pathetic excuse. I rarely mention it now because there's just no point. I always end up looking desperate and clingy.

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7 Penelope P
3d ·
Made progress in the craft room, washed my recycling bins, unpacked nearly all the remaining boxes. I would say I am now 90% sorted in this house. Need to get a shower, shave bits and moisturise.
Penelope P
3d ·

Mum will ring at three and then my fella coming over and I can't wait to see him. So happy I have got him back again, forever grateful.

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6 Penelope P
4d ·
Made a tiny bit more progress with the unpacking. It's actually been quite nice not having to entertain M. He's coming over later which is okay because I miss him. Hope we have cuddles.
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4 Penelope P
5d ·
Knocked M back last night because I just need a break as I'm so exhausted and I still have lots to do. I do miss him so much but that's every day really. Need to sort the house today. Big shop coming.
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3 Penelope P
6d ·
Very tired and I don't normally get like this. Doing an extra morning at work so that I can get all the work done I hope. It's very stressful.
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3 Penelope P
7d ·
My colleague is signed off for another four weeks. This year is really going in hard on me.
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4 Penelope P
11 Jun 2019 ·
M came round tonight. We laughed until we cried. I love that. Not looking forward to work tomorrow. Terrified that I will have to speak in an office meeting. Can't bear it.
Aya N
11 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
12 Jun 2019 ·

Good luck with the meeting! Those kind of laughs are really cathartic!

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5 Penelope P
10 Jun 2019 ·
Already exhausted and Monday hasn't even started yet. Going into work late. No one to care anyway. Need a full 24 hours of sleep but that isn't going to happen any time soon.
Jeff M
10 Jun 2019 ·

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6 Penelope P
09 Jun 2019 ·
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me M
09 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
09 Jun 2019 ·

Fair bit of green recently Pen. This move turning out ok?

Penelope P
10 Jun 2019 ·

Yes thanks John, there is a lovely calm vibe here. It is so quiet and private, such a good hideaway for me.

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7 Penelope P
08 Jun 2019 ·
Lady pains woke me at 7 so just laying here listening to birdsong. Still extremely tired. Today I need to finish off cleaning and unpacking but not much energy for it. Hope it improves.
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08 Jun 2019 ·

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7 Penelope P
07 Jun 2019 ·
M bought me caterpillars for my birthday and they're now starting to pupate. It's fascinating stuff, and incredible. He came round today and we went for lunch, it was nice.
Penelope P
07 Jun 2019 ·

We did some shopping and he helped me move some furniture. We get on so well, even when we are a bit out of sorts we manage to not let it come between us. We laugh and joke and never take ourselves seriously.

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Jun 2019 ·

Was it your birthday, Pen? Did I miss it? Happy birthday! Glad you had a nice time!

Penelope P
10 Jun 2019 ·

Hehe, no Jeff, my birthday was back in Feb but you can't get the caterpillars until March onwards. Got them now so it will be nice and warm for the flutterbys to be released!

Jeff M
10 Jun 2019 ·

Oh, then hopefully I wished you a happy one back then. :) If not, I'm early for next year!!

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7 Penelope P
06 Jun 2019 ·
Really appreciating the quiet in my new neighbourhood. I'm not overlooked out back and it is so calming out there.
Penelope P
06 Jun 2019 ·

It will be lovely for summer days. Work a bit stressy still as I've got all the responsibility and doing the work of two. But I can feel I'm slightly calmer.

Penelope P
06 Jun 2019 ·

Not so gloomy about the future. Slowly getting the house sorted, there's a lot to unpack. Overall I am okay.

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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07 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
07 Jun 2019 ·

Glad you like the new place!

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07 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
07 Jun 2019 ·

Great news, it matters so much to be happy where you live xx

Penelope P
07 Jun 2019 ·

Yes, don't I know it. I like it here more than I thought I would. It is quite away out of town, about 5 miles I think, but I'll get used to the commute. Everything else I need is here in the village.

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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4 Penelope P
05 Jun 2019 ·
M being off tonight so rethinking my weekend. I could do with staying home and getting things unpacked.
Penelope P
05 Jun 2019 ·

When he's like this then I can't be bothered and want to do my own thing. Less stressed now but out of sorts.

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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6 Penelope P
04 Jun 2019 ·
In the new house, lovely and quiet. Birds singing, no traffic or chavs going by. Met neighbour (joined). Just tired.
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04 Jun 2019 ·

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04 Jun 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
04 Jun 2019 ·

That's great news Penelope. Happy new home

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04 Jun 2019 ·

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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6 Penelope P
03 Jun 2019 ·
Final night in this house. A little sad but I'll be okay in the new place. Need to adjust in some areas but I know one day I'll be living with M so it's only a stepping stone to where I'm meant to be.
Penelope P
04 Jun 2019 ·

Thank you all!

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John T
03 Jun 2019 ·

Good luck. Plenty of extra rest and tea breaks to try and fit in tomorrow.

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7 Penelope P
02 Jun 2019 ·
M coming round for tea later. Last meal in this house. Actually looking forward to the new place now. Yesterday met the elderly lady next door (not joined). Peace & quiet of a cul de sac will be nice.
Penelope P
02 Jun 2019 ·

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Penelope P
02 Jun 2019 ·

Don't want to have to spend an hour and a half of my day travelling to work but the quiet location will be worth it I'm sure. Sad to leave friends but I have others in the new village who I can reconnect with.

Penelope P
02 Jun 2019 ·

M says he will still come and see me. It will remain to be seen if it's as often though. It's not much further but he knows more of our ex colleagues nearby. And I think he's still embarrassed to be seen with me.

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02 Jun 2019 ·

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7 Penelope P
02 Jun 2019 ·
Donald Trump is bigger than Big Ben 🤣 I'm dying.
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7 Penelope P
01 Jun 2019 ·
Learning to let M help me with move things. It takes a lot for me to depend on anyone but myself but I'm trying to let go of the control a little. We had a nice lunch and I love him. More.
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01 Jun 2019 ·

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