well... if I were you, I would consider, firstly, whether I actually loved him, secondly, whether I had bipolar disorder... but actually, sometimes sadness and frustration can manifest like that, when brain is simply refusing to believe the dreaded t
thing happened... some kind of dissociation
Poor you. Please take extra special care whilst you are feeling this low. Please look after yourself. Big hugs
May the breach be mended with forgiveness, kindness, compassion & love. You got this.