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0 H F
23 Jun 2018 ·
😢😭😢😭😢😭 When Your favourite person in the Multiverse tells You they do not want to live anymore because of illness. Disbelief, deepest sadness, darkest depression, deepest heartbreak. Overwhelmed
Robert H
23 Jun 2018 ·

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23 Jun 2018 ·

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23 Jun 2018 ·

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23 Jun 2018 ·

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24 Jun 2018 ·

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24 Jun 2018 ·

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25 Jun 2018 ·

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26 Jun 2018 ·

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0 H F
14 Jun 2018 ·
We are facing the the worst time of Our lives, the one We have all feared in our worst nightmares. All I want to do is cry my eyes out forever but I have to be strong for my favourite person in the
H F
14 Jun 2018 ·

Multiverse.

H F
14 Jun 2018 ·

I KNOW I will not want to live anymore but I am going to exist somehow with this pain.

tEnT S
14 Jun 2018 ·

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Liane A
14 Jun 2018 ·

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14 Jun 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
14 Jun 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
14 Jun 2018 ·

Sounds like you are going through a really tough time. Call a helpline or speak to a friend or family member about how you are feeling. Wishin* you all the best.

Jeff M
14 Jun 2018 ·

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Jeff M
14 Jun 2018 ·

Wow, HF, I don't know what this time is, but I am so sorry! I will be sending you my thoughts and prayers and all the strength I can. You are not alone...people care about you and want to help you through tough times! *Huge Hugs*

Cindy M
14 Jun 2018 ·

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Cindy M
14 Jun 2018 ·

I'm so sorry, HF - sending love and strength, will keep you in my thoughts. xx

DesBear D
14 Jun 2018 ·

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DesBear D
14 Jun 2018 ·

<3 <3 all the hugs!

Tuxi A
14 Jun 2018 ·

I am sorry that things are so bad for you. I hope it will get better...

Manda P
15 Jun 2018 ·

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Manda P
15 Jun 2018 ·

I am sorry you are going through such a hard time, H F. I'll be thinking of you. xx

H F
23 Jun 2018 ·

Thank You my Panda Friends

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02 Jul 2018 ·

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0 H F
15 Mar 2018 ·
I really want to harm myself badly.
H F
15 Mar 2018 ·

Like punishing myself like cutting a finger off.

H F
15 Mar 2018 ·

I know this sounds strange and I am aware this is not normal but I really want to.

H F
15 Mar 2018 ·

I don't want to be here anymore

Noel L
15 Mar 2018 ·

H F can you seek help urgently? Your doctor or a helpline? Please don't harm yourself. You are too special.

Tasha S
15 Mar 2018 ·

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Michelle W
15 Mar 2018 ·

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Cindy M
15 Mar 2018 ·

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Cindy M
15 Mar 2018 ·

Really hoping you are okay. Thinking of you xx

Manda P
15 Mar 2018 ·

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Manda P
15 Mar 2018 ·

I hope you are ok, H F. You definitely need to call someone when you have those feelings. There are people that can help. Thinking of you! 💖

DesBear D
15 Mar 2018 ·

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DesBear D
15 Mar 2018 ·

Lots of love your way. You can hold on ❤️

Jeff M
15 Mar 2018 ·

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Jeff M
15 Mar 2018 ·

Thinking of you, HF. Hope you're OK!

H F
18 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Noel, You are very kind. I survived

H F
18 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Tasha and Michelle, Hugs

H F
18 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Cindy, I am okay at the moment, Hugs

Noel L
18 Mar 2018 ·

Great H F I am glad you are safe. Please do seek help that may prevent you feeling so low in the future. Best wishes, Noel

H F
19 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Manda, I am okay at the moment, Hugs 💛

H F
19 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You DesBear, I managed to hold on, Hugs, lots of love my Friend

H F
19 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Dear Jeff, I am currently okay, Hugs

Love 1
24 Mar 2018 ·

Awesome that you managed to resist the urge during a moment of intense suffering and desperation. As strong as the urge was, something stronger resisted and demanded restraint. Something to celebrate.

H F
24 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Love, I pray that will continue

Love 1
24 Mar 2018 ·

Me, too. Next time the urge comes, as it may, you will have had this positive experience- knowing that it will pass. Perhaps you can embrace this part that wishes to do self harm. It is the part of the self that is suffering and needs compassion.

H F
25 Mar 2018 ·

Yes... maybe I can learn to so I can survive. My self compassion has taken a nh

H F
25 Mar 2018 ·

huge dive and I am struggling to feel like I deserve anything.

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

The ego, or little self, tries very hard to protect what it thinks needs defense. It is sincere, but it is assuming a function it cannot perform. If you seek guidance from ego, you will continue to suffer. The suffering, however, may be for your good

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

For when we have had enough and feel defeated and are humbled and receptive, thirsting for something else, desperate for something else, willing to let go, we grow out of suffering

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

The little self does not know the way, but your Inner Guide does. The little self is not author of reality, but the author of misery. Acknowledging its limitations and ignorance, with compassion, is a step forward.

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

If you direct your attention to your breath, you can control it to a degree. Ask your little self to hold it indefinitely- it cannot. You did not create the breath, your lungs, the diaphragm, the brain that sends the signal to the diaphragm to contra

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

Yet this amazing function continues automatically. If little self had to perform this function, it might try to be the best or create a breath that was prettier or worthier or deserving. Breath is one of many functions that occur automatically:

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

Heartbeat, ph balance, digestion, cell replication, oxygen exchange, immune function are others of many. At this level, there is predictability, stability, harmony. Ego had NOTHING to do with this not with the perfect composition of air, water, soil,

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

which sustain life, the perfection of the solar system, galaxies, universe or, @the sub atomic level, the laws that govern quarks. Yet, ego has dominion over mind & the experience of mind, which it does not rule well. We can relieve it of this burden

Love 1
25 Mar 2018 ·

I trust that the Universe does not need my help. I surrender to the Mystery that created me. I cannot fathom it's understanding, but I trust it. Retiring ego,

H F
28 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Love

Love 1
28 Mar 2018 ·

Your spirit is truly SAFE and ok. Wishing you peace

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2 H F
07 Mar 2018 ·
Not so good. I don't think I want to be here in the future. I feel sad for thinking that but I do feel that way and I can't seem to see any other way to survive and surpass. Would like to cut myself
H F
07 Mar 2018 ·

to feel relief. I have had an urge to self harm this way but never have done it. I didn't even know that other people actually did this.

Love 1
07 Mar 2018 ·

It's just a thought. We all feel bad time to time- hopeless, defeated, aimless... (I feel like some uplifting music should go here followed by something inspirational), but id rather give you a hug. A real one.

H F
07 Mar 2018 ·

Thank you very much love, I need one or probably many. Yes it is just a thought but unfortunately it has predominated and I fear this will only continue. I wish I could save myself but not sure I can.

H F
07 Mar 2018 ·

I mean Love with a capital

Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

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Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

The future is really intimidating. It's vast and scary, and we can't help but project our present on the future and assume it will always be this way. Sometimes, the future is so scary I get panic attacks thinking about it.

Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

But it's sort of irrelevant. The future will happen, and we cannot predict if we'll be unhappy or happy or hungry or sleepy or what. We can really only take the present. Sounds like this present is really hard right now.

Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

And you want a way to get through it. I can understand that. But don't worry about the future so much...just get through now.

Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

In addition, there are tons of links online about self-harming and ways to fight the urge, if you have a moment to search. I know that's not easy...

Jeff M
07 Mar 2018 ·

Thinking of you, my friend, and sending you as much strength as I can muster for the difficult now.

Valeria P
07 Mar 2018 ·

in case you need to chat www.imalive.org

John N
07 Mar 2018 ·

The above is all excellent. One moment at a time. It WILL pass and you can work on yourself again with a clearer, more rational mindset.

John N
07 Mar 2018 ·

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Lydia R
07 Mar 2018 ·

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07 Mar 2018 ·

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07 Mar 2018 ·

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Love 1
07 Mar 2018 ·

Dark, dominant thoughts do have a strong pull on consciousness and are not easy to let go. I wrestle w/resentment, bitterness, disgust, anger and other emotionally charged thoughts. The majority of my 0-5 scores are attachments of this nature.

Love 1
07 Mar 2018 ·

They are judgments, evaluations, interpretations of fluctuating, variable states that have a denseness to them. They disturb our peace, but are often heavy and not easy to cast off.

Love 1
07 Mar 2018 ·

Through meditation, reorientation, redirecting of attention, need identification or other skillful means, we CAN disentangle ourselves. So, when you say 'Wish I could...' know that it is possible. (Triumphant music).

Richard E
07 Mar 2018 ·

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Manda P
08 Mar 2018 ·

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Manda P
08 Mar 2018 ·

So sorry to see you are feeling this bad, dear H F. I don't really have anything else to add because other Pandas did such a good job of it. Sending you lots of love & real hugs. 💖

H F
08 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You dear Jeff, you make a lot of sense. I promise to try that's all I can do. But I fear that I am not strong enough maybe for this world. Love and Hugs

H F
08 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You dear Love, yes I agree on an intellectual level but emotionally sometimes a person reaches a stage where it becomes hard to help yourself through. But I will try. Love and Hugs

H F
09 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Valeria

H F
09 Mar 2018 ·

Hugs Valeria

H F
09 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You John N, Hugs

H F
09 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You Lydia, John T, Tuxi and Richard, Hugs

H F
09 Mar 2018 ·

Thank You dear Manda, Love and Hugs

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5 H F
31 Dec 2017 ·
Happy New Year, Love You my Friends <3<3<3
Jeff M
31 Dec 2017 ·

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Jeff M
31 Dec 2017 ·

Happy new year, HF!

Tasha S
31 Dec 2017 ·

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Love 1
31 Dec 2017 ·

Happy New Year. May 2018 be filled w/blessings

Lydia R
31 Dec 2017 ·

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Esther B
31 Dec 2017 ·

lief vir jou vriendin. gelukkig nieuwjaar xxx

Manda P
31 Dec 2017 ·

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Manda P
31 Dec 2017 ·

Happy New Year, H F. Lots of love. 💖

Richard E
31 Dec 2017 ·

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Richard E
31 Dec 2017 ·

Happy new year x

DesBear D
01 Jan 2018 ·

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Natalie C
02 Jan 2018 ·

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Natalie C
02 Jan 2018 ·

Happy New Year x

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2 H F
28 Nov 2017 ·
Tired.
M S
28 Nov 2017 ·

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Tasha S
28 Nov 2017 ·

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28 Nov 2017 ·

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paul M
28 Nov 2017 ·

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Jeff M
28 Nov 2017 ·

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Jeff M
28 Nov 2017 ·

Hi, HF! Always nice to see you here, but sorry to see so low a number. :( Hope you're doing ok! Sending you hugs and strength!

H F
28 Nov 2017 ·

Thank You All, Hugs back

sonny S
28 Nov 2017 ·

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28 Nov 2017 ·

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28 Nov 2017 ·

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3 H F
20 Nov 2017 ·
Hello Pandas, just wanted to say thank you to so many of you who reached out and found out if I was alright. From this, I have learnt that Pandas are not self-focused despite depression but make the
H F
20 Nov 2017 ·

effort to find out how others are and that Pandas sincerely care. May you attract the same consideration you extended to me. Hugs <3

Lydia R
20 Nov 2017 ·

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20 Nov 2017 ·

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Tasha S
20 Nov 2017 ·

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20 Nov 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Nov 2017 ·

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Jeff M
20 Nov 2017 ·

Aw, HF, glad you posted again! I miss you and your posts. MP is a weird place. People disappear without notice or warning, and we all worry. But I know it's a place that people use for themselves more than for others. And sometimes...

Jeff M
20 Nov 2017 ·

...you have to go do other things. But I've been hoping you're doing ok! Sorry to see only a 3. We're here for you should you ever need us. And know even if we don't post or reach out, we care!!

Manda P
20 Nov 2017 ·

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Manda P
20 Nov 2017 ·

Good to hear from you, H F even though I am sorry to see it's a 3. Hope things start to look up for you soon & that you'll stick around if you feel up to it. No pressure though. Pandas are always here! 💖

Love 1
26 Nov 2017 ·

Relieved to know youre ok, even if not ok ok.

Esther B
26 Nov 2017 ·

Missed you around my lief Afrikaans vriendin

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4 H F
04 Aug 2017 ·
Been feeling physically unwell lately. Not sure but stomach is niggling and I feel yucky. Mentally, a and d has been constant and d has been overshadowing each day. I don't want to increase dose as I
H F
04 Aug 2017 ·

am concerned increase will make me even more tired and I am already an exhausted person. When I first went on ads, I could barely get out of bed and slept a lot. I still do so I feel I can't afford to be any more tired. Been under constant stress.

Jeff M
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Esther B
04 Aug 2017 ·

I'm sorry you're this low. It's a tough decision. Can't you switch to other ads that make you less tired?

Manda P
04 Aug 2017 ·

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Manda P
04 Aug 2017 ·

So sorry you're feeling this bad, H F. I have Esther's question. Have you tried switching to a different antidepressant? Sometimes you gotta go through a lot to find the right one for you. I'll be thinking of you. 💚

Binky B
04 Aug 2017 ·

H F, I am thinking of you my dear Panda friend x

Richard E
05 Aug 2017 ·

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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Natalie C
05 Aug 2017 ·

Big Hugs HF <3

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05 Aug 2017 ·

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20 Aug 2017 ·

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29 Oct 2017 ·

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5 H F
08 Jul 2017 ·
So.... I'm playing a second song today (usually don't play music with company) and start singing along. P asks if I would mind stopping singing? Now I know my voice is not that bad as many people have
H F
08 Jul 2017 ·

actually complimented me on my singing. And it's not like I play music or sing along with it often in the presence of p at all. Was/am quite hurt (I actually felt it in my chest) and extremely disappointed. I have to listen to p's music constantly.

H F
08 Jul 2017 ·

It's these kinds of things that make warning bells go off.

Ali H
08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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08 Jul 2017 ·

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Binky B
08 Jul 2017 ·

😞

Shelley H
09 Jul 2017 ·

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09 Jul 2017 ·

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H F
10 Jul 2017 ·

Hello and Thank You my Panda Friends. I was very hurt but managed to express my disappointment calmly and not too emotionally. P realised how awful what He said was and apologised genuinely and so I forgave given the sincerity of the apology.

H F
10 Jul 2017 ·

I can sense P is reflecting more and genuinely wanting to be better

A V
31 Jul 2017 ·

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Shelley H
31 Jul 2017 ·

😃

Binky B
03 Aug 2017 ·

I'm so glad to hear that P was genuinely apologetic 💕

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2 H F
29 May 2017 ·
Very depressed. Not sure about anything, not sure I want to be here. I am a failure at most of everything.
Koopie W
29 May 2017 ·

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Mike K
29 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
29 May 2017 ·

Sounds like the voice of depression. What's it expressing? There's uncertainty, a search for meaning perhaps? Behind the words of defeat, am I hearing a need to be affirmed, a call for love maybe?

Manda P
29 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
29 May 2017 ·

You're not a failure at everything, H F. You are amazing! It does sound like you are experiencing deep depression though. Are you on meds? Maybe need adjusted. If not, consider. ***al thoughts are not to be played around with. Thinking of you. xx

Rikke B
29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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29 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
29 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
29 May 2017 ·

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, H F - you're definitely not a failure, no matter how things feel. Some wise thoughts from fellow Pandas. You're in my thoughts xx

Jeff M
29 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
29 May 2017 ·

Sorry you're so low, HF. Sending you strength...

Richard E
29 May 2017 ·

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A V
30 May 2017 ·

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A V
30 May 2017 ·

HF sorry to hear you're not doing too good. In your last post you had written your first action would be to increase your ADs. Do you think that might be an option at this point in time. Hope you're feeling a little better soon. Thinking of you xxx

A V
28 Jun 2017 ·

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Manda P
29 Jun 2017 ·

Hope you are ok, H F. Anxiously awaiting you checking in here. Thinking of you! 💚

A V
03 Jul 2017 ·

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4 H F
14 May 2017 ·
I am scared as to the depths of sadness I may go to in the future... Will I be reachable?
Alex S
14 May 2017 · NEW

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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Natalie C
14 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
14 May 2017 ·

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14 May 2017 ·

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Binky B
15 May 2017 ·

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Stephen C
15 May 2017 ·

Please take care. Big Hugs

DesBear D
15 May 2017 ·

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A V
15 May 2017 ·

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H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You my Lovely Friends, I appreciate You so much, I think if I ever get bad my first line of action would be to increase the AD

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Stephen, I will try, Big Hugs

Binky B
16 May 2017 ·

You're welcome. I think you are right, increasing AD could be a crucial first step. Hugs x

Tonya R
17 May 2017 · NEW

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4 H F
06 May 2017 ·
Started out happy-ish and nice day then partner starts giving me trouble about what I haven't done. I know what I haven't been doing and need to do but stressing me about it just exhausts me further
Binky B
06 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
06 May 2017 ·

In between the lines, am I reading needs for rest & space, maybe understanding & consideration?

Love 1
07 May 2017 ·

Forgiveness I sweet!

H F
06 May 2017 ·

and then I don't want to do it. It's like I can never have a whole semi- happy day without someone wanting to take away what tiny bit of joy I may have

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Natalie <3

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Yes Love (always sounds funny, lol) that is correct. Fortunately my partner realised this and he apologised genuinely. Given His sincerity, I forgave.

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Tasha, Binky, Jeff and Rorschach. Hugs X 4

H F
06 May 2017 ·

Thank You Cindy <3

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Reba, Hugs

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Manda, Yes it was good and thank You for the compliment, Hugs <3

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Richard, Hugs

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You Love, Yes it can be, I don't tend to forgive easily I must say

H F
16 May 2017 ·

Thank You A V :), Hugs X 3!!!

Jeff M
06 May 2017 ·

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A V
07 May 2017 ·

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A V
11 May 2017 ·

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A V
15 May 2017 ·

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Richard E
06 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
06 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
06 May 2017 ·

I'm glad he realized & forgave. My BF never does that. You're doing perfectly well, H F. Don't let him tell you differently. <3

Tasha S
06 May 2017 ·

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Reba H
06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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06 May 2017 ·

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Natalie C
06 May 2017 ·

Big hugs HF<3

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3 H F
03 May 2017 ·
Just plain fed up. My tolerance is low. I just don't seem to care about things I used to AT ALL. I don't do things with care and love like I used to because there is no reserve. Concerned about health
Ray E
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

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Anonmous A
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

So sorry, H F. You should be concerned about health first & foremost. Let the other worries drift away. <3

Anonmous A
03 May 2017 ·

<3

Jeff M
03 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
03 May 2017 ·

Sometimes you just run out...you have to recharge. It's ok to coast on empty for a while. You'll fill up again! Hope you feel ok, HF!

Binky B
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2017 ·

Double hugs for you, H F. Hope you feel better soon. <3

Christina S
03 May 2017 ·

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03 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
03 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
03 May 2017 ·

Lots of love, H F xx

Richard E
03 May 2017 ·

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DesBear D
04 May 2017 ·

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DesBear D
04 May 2017 ·

<3 <3

Wendy A
04 May 2017 ·

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Wendy A
04 May 2017 ·

Love you HF hang in there!!!

A V
07 May 2017 ·

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5 H F
01 May 2017 ·
The inspection was over on Thursday - it went fine but I was exhausted. Have been too tired to post or to do much actually. I think my Hashimoto's has really been playing up this month. Haven't been
H F
01 May 2017 ·

doing much because of it. May have to visit Doc again to test thyroid function. Thinking of You all.

Max L
01 May 2017 ·

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Love 1
01 May 2017 ·

Relief it's over. The exhaustion is there. May you get relief from that too.

Patty D
01 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
01 May 2017 ·

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Manda P
01 May 2017 ·

So glad it's over. What a weight off your shoulders. xx

Jeff M
01 May 2017 ·

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Jeff M
01 May 2017 ·

That's good to hear, HF. Hope you feel better and get to relax and recoup!

DesBear D
01 May 2017 ·

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DesBear D
01 May 2017 ·

I have Hashimoto's, too! It is a pain! Feel better <3

Cindy M
01 May 2017 ·

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Cindy M
01 May 2017 ·

Have a good rest, dear H F xx

Natalie C
01 May 2017 ·

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01 May 2017 ·

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02 May 2017 ·

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07 May 2017 ·

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4 H F
22 Apr 2017 ·
Feeling quite depressed today. Bad dreams, bad quality sleep and difficulty breathing which started up again two days ago after a long time of normal breathing.
H F
22 Apr 2017 ·

Rental inspection soon, yuck. No doubt the cleaning is going to make my breathing worse :(.

Reba H
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

So sorry to hear, H F. A rental inspection would cause me anxiety. I'd come help you clean if I could. Apparently I don't clean my house enough so surely I have extra time to help with yours! Really hope your breathing returns to normal too. That...

Manda P
22 Apr 2017 ·

...sounds scary. xx

Natalie C
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Esther B
22 Apr 2017 ·

Rental inspection sounds like crap. I'd wish you didn't have to do that every time. I'm sorry you're feeling very low. Is there any medical treatment for your trouble with breathing?

DesBear D
22 Apr 2017 ·

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DesBear D
22 Apr 2017 ·

<3

Richard E
22 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

I empathise with you about the rental inspections - and with your breathing problems that's extra nasty. Thanks for your support when you're feeling so down, lovely H F. Hope you feel a bit better soon xx

Binky B
23 Apr 2017 ·

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H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You my Panda Friends, Hugs X 9

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Rorschach - no I hadn't read it, sorry. Thank You very much, I will make contact.

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Manda, Yes I really don't feel up to all the tidying and cleaning. Ah thank You for the kind thoughts and lol, people sometimes don't realise how much work housework is unless they are doing it!

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Manda - Yes the breathlessness is distressing and uncomfortable and makes me quite tired! Which is not helping because I have a lot of tidying to do. <3 and Hugs

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Yes it is Esther, me too! It's a very intrusive process and they even take photos of each and every room which I really find quite a violation of privacy. I do understand they need to show the owner but it's OTT.

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Esther, Yes as You know depression sucks :(. I had this problem with breathing last year but then it went. I did go to Dr but He wasn't sure. If it continues I will have to have xray and tests. I think it is allergies causing asthma

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Esther - I don't smoke... I think Our new oil heater might be giving off a kind of paint smell which might be causing it. I seem to be very sensitive since the fire, probably was exposed to irritants at the site, the smell was unbelievable

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Thank You Desbear <3

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Ah Cindy thank You, We're in this together :D! Hope You are feeling okay too <3

Cindy M
23 Apr 2017 ·

My lot take photos too - only one room each visit, but like you it annoys me, tho I can hardly say that!

H F
23 Apr 2017 ·

Yes Cindy when You rent, it doesn't matter what We prefer, lol. But it is so intrusive! They are supposed to take a photo without getting the tenant's belongings in the photo if possible but they don't care!

Esther B
23 Apr 2017 ·

Hmm if only you could find a cause so you can deal with it.. my brother has it sometimes as well and then he needs to use an inhaler but guess everyone is different. Is there any news when it comes to the insurance? Baie liefde vriendin

Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Anonmous A
30 Apr 2017 ·

<3 <3

H F
01 May 2017 ·

Yes Dear Esther Wish I could pinpoint the cause... Weird and disconcerting. No news, all the onus is on Us to list everything and cost everything as the lists of items in the house provided were very general and vague. Baie liefde na Jou my vriendin!

H F
01 May 2017 ·

Anonmous! Thank You for the love and hugs, right back at You :D <3<3<3

A V
07 May 2017 ·

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4 H F
04 Apr 2017 ·
Not too good. Feeling very depressed lately. Overshadowed constantly. Don't feel understood. Don't feel acknowledged.
Doodles B
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Cindy M
04 Apr 2017 ·

Oh H F, I'm so sorry. Have you been able to tell those concerned how you're feeling? I know that's not easy. Thinking of you xx

Manda P
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
04 Apr 2017 ·

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Jeff M
04 Apr 2017 ·

Sorry, HF. I hope it's just a dip, a rut. I've been feeling that way too, and I'm trying hard not to let it get me down too much. Hope you find a way to pull out of it! *Big hugs*

Manda P
04 Apr 2017 ·

I'm so sorry, H F. Like Cindy, I hope you've been able to talk to someone. I'm glad you're back on here. Pandas are always here for you. Once the issue of what outside information is shared, I'll let you know & give you mine. I've got your back. <3

H F
04 Apr 2017 ·

Wow what an amazing and quick response from my Panda Friends!!! How lucky am I. I really count on Your support. Thank You SO much. Love and Hugs to each of You

paul M
04 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Natalie C
04 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

sonny S
04 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

sonny S
04 Apr 2017 ·

Hope u feel better

Natalie C
04 Apr 2017 ·

Big hugs HF <3 thinking of you x

Esther B
04 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Esther B
04 Apr 2017 ·

Sorry to read this. Wish I could do things to make you feel better but I guess that's not an option. Thinking of you and hoping you will find a bit of sunshine or light to cheer you up a bit :))

Christina S
04 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Richard E
04 Apr 2017 ·

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DesBear D
05 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

DesBear D
05 Apr 2017 ·

<3

Binky B
05 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
05 Apr 2017 ·

Sounds like you feel let down by those in your life :-( hope you can find someone to understand xx

Love 1
07 Apr 2017 ·

That's tough. When our basic needs for acceptance and acknowledgment are not met ,it hurts. I'm trying to reconcile the fact that some people I love cannot and look elsewhere, sometimes within, for fulfillment

Anonmous A
14 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Anonmous A
14 Apr 2017 ·

Thinking of you HF. Your always in my thoughts. Im sorry your feeling this way. Try and go for a walk n distract yourself from these thoughts. Huge hugs xx

A V
15 Apr 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
16 Apr 2017 ·

Yeah, H F. I know you wanted to know how people got in touch outside of MP. Rorschach is kind enough to post his email. If you email him, he'll give you my email address & you can feel free to write anytime.

Anonmous A
17 Apr 2017 ·

Mwah xx

A V
07 May 2017 ·

*Hugs*

A V
07 May 2017 ·

Wowies the Panda community is so beautiful sharing their love outside of MoodPanda. HF if you want someone else to be in contact with I am here for you. We've been keeping up with each other's lives for 5 years!! :)

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5 H F
22 Mar 2017 ·
Feeling okay, trying to help Myself with everything. Because who else is going to, right? A shout out to my loyal Panda Friends and my new Panda Friends for Your comments and Hugs, especially on my
H F
22 Mar 2017 ·

last post. It takes effort and thoughtfulness to hug and especially comment, so a BIG thank You as I really appreciate it. I apologise for not responding as I was in a bad space and exhausted.

Jeff M
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Jeff M
22 Mar 2017 ·

So glad you're feeling ok and not in as bad a space, HF. Always happy to see a post or hug from you. Keep helping yourself! That's the hardest but most important thing to do! *Big hugs*

Manda P
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
22 Mar 2017 ·

Hey H F, great to hear from you. Keep on being awesome :-)

Manda P
22 Mar 2017 ·

Never apologize for not responding, H F. Us Pandas sometimes go through really hard times & responding to each post can be overwhelming. We will love you no matter what. Look after yourself. I'll be thinking of you! xx

Reba H
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

sonny S
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

DesBear D
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Esther B
22 Mar 2017 ·

Don't apologise. We help each other when needed. It's normal and okay to be off for a bit. Just happy to see you around. Any progress on the insurance thing? If you don't wanna talk about it I understand. Xx

Richard E
22 Mar 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Natalie C
23 Mar 2017 ·

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Mandy O
03 Apr 2017 ·

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A V
15 Apr 2017 ·

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A V
07 May 2017 ·

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2 H F
16 Feb 2017 ·
I act like I've got everything under control. Treading water constantly. I wear a smile for years. But inside I am fallen apart, broken with not much hope for anything good in the future. Not any hope
Christiana H
16 Feb 2017 · NEW

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H F
16 Feb 2017 ·

for being able to cope. Very little belief that that there is any hope for a true happiness for me. Always ready for the worst and little faith (now) in divine help because of experiences. A deep sadness and fear that remains hidden but lies so clos

H F
16 Feb 2017 ·

close underneath and permeates everything.

Renee M
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Éva H
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
16 Feb 2017 ·

Dear H F, your words are poetic. This is real... I hear you.

Sasha M
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Reba H
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Richard E
16 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Christina S
16 Feb 2017 ·

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Esther B
16 Feb 2017 ·

I'm so sorry that you feel this way. I wish I had something wise to say to make you feel better but I don't know what. I'm thinking of you though. Stay strong xx

Cindy M
17 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Cindy M
17 Feb 2017 ·

Thinking of you, dear H F. xx

DesBear D
17 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

DesBear D
17 Feb 2017 ·

Lots of love

Anonmous A
17 Feb 2017 ·

H F, love you lots. I know how you feel I think maybe you relate to lots of people on here. I certainly feel like that. I wonder if it's being on the AD'S? Since my dose has been doubled im depressed when I started. Hold on in there. Big hugs xx

Manda P
18 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
18 Feb 2017 ·

My dear H F, hope you are feeling better by now. I know how these feelings can carry you away. You are strong though. Hold on tight & wait for it to pass.

A V
25 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

A V
25 Feb 2017 ·

HF I go to that place and I once lived in that place. There will be light for you

Valerie V
27 Feb 2017 ·

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3 H F
10 Feb 2017 ·
Feel upset again...
H F
10 Feb 2017 ·

Justifiably. Not pay

H F
10 Feb 2017 ·

Oops. I meant not Partner this time. Pretending that I'm not upset but it's been at the forefront of my mind the whole of last night and today. Confused and offended by what loved one implied

H F
10 Feb 2017 ·

What a shame. But will do my best to overlook although quite difficult. Disappointed too.

Reba H
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Jenna L
10 Feb 2017 ·

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Lucy M
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Alena S
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Tasha S
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

L A
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
10 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Richard E
11 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

H F
16 Feb 2017 ·

Thank You for the Hugs, Hugs back

Richard E
16 Feb 2017 ·

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A V
25 Feb 2017 ·

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5 H F
07 Feb 2017 ·
Partner trying to make up for upset but I'm privately still hurting from upset. I was delivered a large café bought coffee in bed today. Wow, I could so get used to that. Beautiful.
Valerie V
07 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
07 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Binky B
07 Feb 2017 ·

Sounds lovely, H F. I want one everyday too

Tasha S
07 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Reba H
07 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
07 Feb 2017 ·

*Hugs*

Manda P
07 Feb 2017 ·

Glad your partner is at least trying. I know it's hard to just get over it when they are doing nice things. Take your time.

Cindy M
07 Feb 2017 ·

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Richard E
07 Feb 2017 ·

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DesBear D
08 Feb 2017 ·

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A V
25 Feb 2017 ·

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