I stillhave a long way to go. Fear that they can't help me or I'm not able to receive help nor get better. Problem with accepting my illness. No selfacceptance and lack of acknowledging my existence.
It may take a while - but you'll get there xx you can do it 💪🏻
I'm glad you have a supportive friend to help you out!
Perhaps that's from the therapy. Maybe you're emptying out and need to be refilled. Thinking of you, Estherbear!
may that emptiness be filled with peace.
I hope it'll get better, soon.
It's intense cause it's moving me. Main goals are acceptance of my 'disorder / disease / whatever you want to call it' and to be willing to recieve therapy. Its hard. I just want to work and be normal.
I suspect that you have to break down before you can 'repair'...get through the walls you built up, which would have to be really hard. Good for you for facing it with perspective! I'm sure you can do it, Esther!
Right on Jeff - you can do this! Proud of you already xx
Way to go, Esther! I am so proud of you for doing this! 💖💚💖
I really like your turn of phrase, 'popping up like mushrooms'! Brilliant! I'm going to start saying that! Hope you are feeling better soon though.
It is a suitable phrase, because those bad thoughts are like fungi. They grow in the dark, wet places and feed on bad things and spread like crazy. (Just ignore the fact that mushrooms can be delicious!)
It's tough, especially after a bad day, but have to resist those bad thoughts so they don't grow and spread!
Just breathe & stop those mushrooms from spreading! It'll be ok, Esther. xx
thanks all 💞
That's great! Very okay is pretty good, if you ask me!
Great to hear Esther 😃
The dutch make great cheese. Edam and Gouda (especially the kind with chillis in) are beautiful delicately flavoured cheeses.
haha thanks John! I loooove cheese.
I remember having cheese with salt on in a Belgian pub once. Not quite Dutch but just next door!
Ooooh I looooove cheese to 👍🏼
Did someone say cheese ?????
Yeaahhh cheese!!! Cheese fondue!!!
It's like a new exercise...the first few days are exhausting, but you'll get in shape for it! Hope it helps you!
Look after yourself - and everything is crossed for you re therapy xx
Thanks all 💞 5 more weeks to go
I still need to get used to not being able to access the community and my site with only one click anymore. I'm a creature of habit.
Hey Lydia - I know what you mean :-) We'll keep working on that. It's a balance between the single click, and being able to access more things easily. Iterate and improve, iterate and improve :-) Thanks Esther
That's true, Jake. I didn't want to be a complete dick and complain about something like that. I'm always like that with updates at first. Always hate them and then slowly get used to them and forget why I ever complained in the first place.:)
I hate changes at first too haha
Is there a way to hover your mouse over the option to bring down the drop-down options rather than have to click to bring the drop-down options? I keep hovering my mouse and expecting that...
Jeff - experimenting with hover now :-)
It's not quite right, but we're working through it :-)
Yeah! Love it!
I see the hovering works! Great job. :)
Hmm...doesn't work for me.
Hmm.. what browser are you using? Maybe the update is rolled out in waves? I haven't a clue. :')
I just looked and it should be using jQuery, which is good, because jQuery is great (but I only use it for stupid, over the top effects! :-D).
Are you on mobile? I mean for me it's working in the desktop version (I prefer typing on my laptop).
Maybe, I'm on Firefox at the moment, but if it was using jQuery, it shouldn't matter which browser really. Maybe it was temporarily updated then taken out, but your browser saved that version... or something.
No, I usually am, but it wouldn't matter on mobile because you don't have a mouse curser.
Sounds like... magic! lol I have no clue. Still working here and so far it's a good compromise between the old single-quick and the new everything-in-one version.
Are you on Chrome?
I just checked, it's working in Chrome...
Haha, I was totally wrong about the browser not mattering!
Yup, currently using Chrome!
Working in Safari too
Might too new (or old) version of jQuery. There's lot of people having problems with it with Firefox after doing a quick Google search. Although I'm going to stop talking because I'm probably wrong again!
We'll look into it
It is working for me on Chrome on my personal computer. Perhaps my work computer blocks the function that does it. Thanks, Jake!
It's a very simple bit of css 🤔
Good luck! I know you'll do great. 💖
Good luck 🍀
Good luck, Esther. Love your attitude for this. I'm sure this will be good for you!
Hope it goes well
Good luck! I hope it will be the right thing for you!
We are all wishing you the best, Esther!
Just take it one day at a time. Enjoy yourself & relax. Rooting for you, sweet Esther! xx
It's exciting and nerve-wracking. But try not to fret, and don't forget that he's probably nervous and anxious too! Sometimes knowing that helps!
Thanks all. If i have enough other stuff on my mind it will go better Im sure. Tjanks for your support
It's the season for colds and flu. Maybe it's just a headache caused by a start of a cold or something.
I've been getting headaches from a cold recently so it could be that.
Hope your relationship blossoms
Yay! That's great. :)
promising. happy for you
Don't knock it! I'm glad you've had some good days, and - more importantly - that you're recognizing the good days and appreciating them! :)
The sun shines through. :)
Glad you're having some good days, Esther, tho I understand wanting to know why, too xx
I'm not sorry, of course, that you feel positive. It's just last week I misread everything in a negative way.
Jij ook de beste wensen voor 2018
That's great to have support!
I'm so glad they support you. We're all with you, dear Esther xx
Sounds like you have colleagues you can confide in.
Happy new year Esther! I hope 2018 will bring some joy for all of us here. :)