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4 Esther B
7d ·
Anxious at trainstation. Can't handle trains atm. They trigger my thoughts.
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7d ·

Hope you got home ok, Esther!

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Hope you're okay xx

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5 Esther B
15 Apr 2018 ·
Had a fairly good night's rest - at home, alone. Cat was constantly next to me. Guess she missed me 🐺.
Lydia R
15 Apr 2018 ·

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Lydia R
15 Apr 2018 ·

Glad to read this! πŸ’•

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15 Apr 2018 ·

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16 Apr 2018 ·

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Tuxi A
16 Apr 2018 ·

Furry companions are great, aren't they? Glad that you are feeling better...

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4 Esther B
14 Apr 2018 ·
At home. I CAN DO THIS.
Cindy M
14 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
14 Apr 2018 ·

You can indeed, Esther. Crossing everything and thinking of you xx

Lulu S
14 Apr 2018 ·

Yes you can! *hugs*

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14 Apr 2018 ·

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Noel L
14 Apr 2018 ·

Yes you will Esther

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14 Apr 2018 ·

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14 Apr 2018 ·

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14 Apr 2018 ·

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Natalia W
14 Apr 2018 ·

*big hugs* for you, Esther

Jeff M
14 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
14 Apr 2018 ·

Yes, for sure! You are SO STRONG!

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14 Apr 2018 ·

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15 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
15 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks!! β™₯

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16 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
13 Apr 2018 ·
Not feeling well. Mind is constantly telling me I can't make it on my own. Afraid to go home but I need to try otherwise it will be a bigger and bigger thing every day. And I'm strong.
Jeff M
13 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
13 Apr 2018 ·

You are strong. Your mind is throwing ideas and thoughts at you, but you are stronger than those thoughts and ideas. They are not reality! I hope you can find distraction and separation from those thoughts!

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13 Apr 2018 ·

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13 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
13 Apr 2018 ·

You are strong - we're with you, Esther. xx

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13 Apr 2018 ·

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13 Apr 2018 ·

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13 Apr 2018 ·

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5 Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·
Thanks for all your support dear friends. Means a lot 🐼β™₯
Jeff M
12 Apr 2018 ·

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John T
12 Apr 2018 ·

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John T
12 Apr 2018 ·

We're just mirroring the support you show us! I hope you can recuperate at your parents.

Lydia R
12 Apr 2018 ·

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
12 Apr 2018 ·

John said it! You're very lovable, dear Esther

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·
Psychiatrist wants me to be admitted but ofcourse there's no space.. so I'll just need to give it another shot at my parents place. lots of other ppl struggling I guess. Luckily i have my parents
Jeff M
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
12 Apr 2018 ·

I'm so glad they are there for you and you're able to be safe! I hope you're able to get in at some point and get the care you need. Rooting for you so strongly, Esther! You deserve to feel better! *Big Hugs*

Dave C
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Love 1
12 Apr 2018 ·

Probably couldnt ask for a more loving environment.

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
12 Apr 2018 ·

So glad you have your parents to go to, Esther. I'd think that'd be very comforting. I'll be thinking of you. xx

Cindy M
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
12 Apr 2018 ·

Glad you'll be safe. Hoping you can get the right support and help. xx

John T
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks friends xxx

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·
This morning I told myself i want to live. Let's see if I can act like that.
tEnT S
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Lydia R
12 Apr 2018 ·

We also want you to live ❀️ wishing you lots of strength and competent professional help!

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
12 Apr 2018 ·

We want you to live! That's such a great, powerful thing to realize. I know it will be difficult. We're here for you as much as we can be!!!

Manda P
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
12 Apr 2018 ·

That's a huge step in the right direction. I hope you continue to feel that way. πŸ’–

Cindy M
12 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
12 Apr 2018 ·

So glad to hear this. And we want you here too. Hope is necessary.

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
11 Apr 2018 ·
Feeling worse. Gonna ask psychiatrist if this is normal..
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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
11 Apr 2018 ·

I hope it passes quickly, Esther. :( Wish we could help!

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
11 Apr 2018 ·

Sorry to see this, sweet Esther. I hope you feel better soon. πŸ’–

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks all. I've got meds to sleep but it's all probably the side effects.. hate this feeling

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12 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
10 Apr 2018 ·
This morning alright when I was cleaning at my place with my mom. When I needed to leave anxious again. And nauseous.
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10 Apr 2018 ·

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10 Apr 2018 ·

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10 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
09 Apr 2018 ·
Feeling bit better I guess. Called in sick. Still at parents. Wednesday appt with psychiatrist and nurse. Tired from my own thoughts
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09 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
09 Apr 2018 ·

Important to note the little improvements. I'm glad you're working with someone to help...Been worried about you!

Lieteke G
09 Apr 2018 ·

Very proud of you for seeking professional help! And good to hear you are feeling just a little bit happier!! And like Jeff said, you noticed it!

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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Cindy M
10 Apr 2018 ·

Good to see a post and that you'll be seeing your psychiatrist. I've been worried too. You're in my thoughts, dear Esther xx

Esther B
10 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks all 🐼🐼 it has been very rough these last few days. I've been feeling very desperate. I hope this passes soon. Thanks a lot for your sweet comments

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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11 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
08 Apr 2018 ·
It's just the side effects I hope. Can't cope with this anymore.
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08 Apr 2018 ·

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08 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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09 Apr 2018 ·

Sending you strength, Esther...Thinking of you!

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
08 Apr 2018 ·
And my cat is all by herself. Maybe she needs a better owner. One who isn't afraid to be at home.
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08 Apr 2018 ·

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08 Apr 2018 ·

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Kristina M
08 Apr 2018 ·

Why are you afraid of being at home?

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08 Apr 2018 ·

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08 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
08 Apr 2018 ·

Because of my panic attacks

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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Tuxi A
09 Apr 2018 ·

Have you thought about getting a second cat, so that they can keep each other company? I feel much better leaving my furballs alone, knowing they still have each other, because the pet sitter only visits two hours per day..

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09 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
12 Apr 2018 ·

Hi tuxi I've thought of that indeed. But the vet told me I should reconsider cause she's 13 already and she's used to being on her own for 13 years. Vet said it would cause her too much stress? Xo

Lydia R
12 Apr 2018 ·

That could indeed be a problem. But I'm sure you're all she needs and this phase will hopefully pass soon! A new owner might also be stressful.

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2 Esther B
08 Apr 2018 ·
Anxiety got worse. At parents again. Afraid I will lose my mind
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08 Apr 2018 ·

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Dave C
08 Apr 2018 ·

Hang in there :) you can get through it

Lulu S
08 Apr 2018 ·

Take a time out when you need to Focus on breathing. You can do this.

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Cindy M
08 Apr 2018 ·

Big hugs, Esther. Thinking of you and glad you're not on your own. Stay safe xx

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3 Esther B
06 Apr 2018 ·
Hopefully this feeling passes. Anxiety is hell.
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06 Apr 2018 ·

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06 Apr 2018 ·

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Lydia R
06 Apr 2018 ·

I really hope so too! Big bugs!

Dave C
06 Apr 2018 ·

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Dave C
06 Apr 2018 ·

It is awful, hope you get through it soon!

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06 Apr 2018 ·

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06 Apr 2018 ·

I hope it will get better soon, hang in there!

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06 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
06 Apr 2018 ·

I don't know what hell is like, but I bet anxiety is worse. Hope you feel better soon, sweetheart. xx

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06 Apr 2018 ·

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3 Esther B
04 Apr 2018 ·
Appt at psychiatrist. Starting low dose of Ad's again to control the anxiety until therapy starts.
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04 Apr 2018 ·

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04 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
04 Apr 2018 ·

I hope they help, Esther. Sounds like that's a good thing...the anxiety is clearly bad lately. *Big hugs*

Kristina M
04 Apr 2018 ·

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04 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
04 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks all. It IS bad. Afraid of my own mind.

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04 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
04 Apr 2018 ·

Sorry to see you struggling so much, Esther. I know how anxiety can totally demolish your world. Hope the ADs help! πŸ’–

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Esther B
05 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks all. I'm on a low dose. I will manage thanksβ™₯

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3 Esther B
03 Apr 2018 ·
Living on Clonazepam. Well. 0.75 mg a day isn't the end of the world I guess. Ironic that the anxiety of a possible anxietu attack is worse then anxiety itself. Distracting myself by reading now.
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03 Apr 2018 ·

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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Lydia R
03 Apr 2018 ·

What are you reading? Hope it helps to make you feel better for a while!

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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03 Apr 2018 ·

Yes, reading is a good distraction. 😊

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
04 Apr 2018 ·

Das spiel das Engels Lydia! Don't know if you've read the other books.. quite nice :)

Esther B
04 Apr 2018 ·

No Lydia I mean das Labyrinth der Lighter!

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04 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
02 Apr 2018 ·
Anxious to go home and afraid of more panic attacks. I've survived this before but it feels soo lonely and I don't know who to call and I need to be at work tomorrow again. Feeling like a lost child.
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02 Apr 2018 ·

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Lieteke G
02 Apr 2018 ·

So sorry to hear that! Please be safe. Try to get some rest.

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Taisia S
02 Apr 2018 ·

Why do you feel like that? I think you should call a BFF no matter what is wrong

Esther B
02 Apr 2018 ·

If I knew why I feel like that I would have prevented it. And my friends are not close by at all.

Esther B
02 Apr 2018 ·

Thanks Lieteke x

Jeff M
02 Apr 2018 ·

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Jeff M
02 Apr 2018 ·

Sorry to hear this...anxiety and panic attacks are the worst, and I can relate to that lonely feeling. I hope you can call your parents or someone. Remember that panic attacks will pass and you can get through. *Sending you strength*

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Manda P
02 Apr 2018 ·

Thinking of you, sweet Esther. πŸ’–

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02 Apr 2018 ·

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02 Apr 2018 ·

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Taisia S
02 Apr 2018 ·

Maybe you could talk to them online?

Taisia S
02 Apr 2018 ·

Jeff your back! Were wore you?

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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2 Esther B
01 Apr 2018 ·
Had the worst panic attack. Afraid of my own thoughts. They told me to hurt myself or cat. It was terrifying. Called my parents. Didn't know who else to call. Really anxious and afraid of the day.
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01 Apr 2018 ·

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Anna N
01 Apr 2018 ·

I'm glad you called for help. That sounds very frightening. I hope you can get some assistance with it

Esther B
01 Apr 2018 ·

I hope so too Anna. Appt with my psychiatrist is in 2 weeks so hopefully I can reschedule.

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Jeff M
01 Apr 2018 ·

I hope you are doing better now, Esther!

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Cindy M
01 Apr 2018 ·

How awful that must have been for you - hope you're able to see someone sooner xx

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01 Apr 2018 ·

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01 Apr 2018 ·

Oh dear, that sounds very rough! I hope you are feeling a bit better now! Are you alone?

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01 Apr 2018 ·

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Esther B
02 Apr 2018 ·

I'm with my parents at this stage Keeping Track but I need to go home in a hour or so. My cats alone and I need to go to work tomorrow.

Manda P
02 Apr 2018 ·

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Manda P
02 Apr 2018 ·

Those thoughts must've been so scary. I'm glad you called your parents. Smart move. Stay on top of your symptoms so you can get the most out of your psych appt. xx

Keeping Track o A
02 Apr 2018 ·

OK well I am glad you got some support for a while at least. And you can enjoy your cat's company when you go home. Maybe you can plan something relaxing for yourself for the evening - a nice meal/walk/movie/reading/music/bath before bed.

Keeping Track o A
02 Apr 2018 ·

Hope the anxiety levels stay low. Try to distract yourself with something! And if anxiety levels do get high - repeatedly remind yourself that you are just experiencing some anxiety and that it WILL pass xx

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03 Apr 2018 ·

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4 Esther B
31 Mar 2018 ·
Pilates. Vegan Easterbrunch in Amsterdam. Not happy at all. Feels like everything is slipping away. Luckily I can hide while reading.
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31 Mar 2018 ·

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01 Apr 2018 ·

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4 Esther B
30 Mar 2018 ·
I don't want to live another 60 years. Barely surviving the days.
Jen B
30 Mar 2018 ·

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30 Mar 2018 ·

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30 Mar 2018 · NEW

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Heheheheheheheh R
30 Mar 2018 · NEW

You will get through it! ❀️

Lydia R
30 Mar 2018 ·

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Lydia R
30 Mar 2018 ·

I feel you, though I hope it won't be more than 30-40 years, which is already really long. Big hugs!

Zoe D
30 Mar 2018 ·

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30 Mar 2018 ·

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