Hopefully tomorrow is a better day!
Maybe go to an lower league/semi pro/amateur match. Something about being stood out in the rain with a pint watching terrible players that is really soul stirring!
Sometimes you have to listen to your body and rest, and that's ok. Sometimes you have to tell your body to suck it up and get out and do things to recharge your mind/soul. Hard to tell when, though.
I can imagine John! Too bad I didn't go. It was a champions league game :(
The 3 - 0 win?? Yep... Definitely curse of hindsight! Don't blame yourself, just enjoy the 3 points.
It's good to take those breaks when you know you need them. Well done, Esther! xx
Yes John! I'm happy indeed. I will go to the next 2 games so will be fine :-)
Thanks Manda xo
How long ppl can wait until they get mental? What a lousy system. We have so much money in our country and healthcare system but we waste it on other things.
That is a horrible system. The people who need help the most right away aren't getting it. :( I'm sorry, Esther. I hope you have support to get you through the waiting...
Wow... Is there any way to have your insurance pay for private treatment in such cases? In Germany, this can be an option, if you can show that all officially covered psychologists are unavailable and you need help urgently.
I have been working with a clinical psychologist through Talkspace for a couple of months now... It is probably not the same as face to face therapy and may not be right for you, but I found it very helpful.
Thanks Tuxi. No if you want to be treated in a private clinic you have to pay it yourself unfortunately. From next week on I will have grouptherapy once a week though maybe that helps a bit.
That's a start. Hopefully, you'll get more support until the clinical therapy starts.
Hope you're feeling better by now, Esther. xx
This has nothing to do with other ppl charly
Don't feel discouraged about what people say or do. Just keep on living your life and forget them.
That sounds very sensible.
Good plan - hope the dr is helpful xx
Good to have a plan like that in motion. Hope you have settled into being home. Thinking of you, Esther. xx
I'm sure you will be at some point if you keep faith in yourself x
I do the same thing...want results NOW! But to be better for the long run, you have to work at it... I'm glad you are working at it!
Sometimes a rest can put thing in perspective. It is possible to put your effort into relaxing too, it can really pay off for your mood.
Please be safe sweet Esther and keep holding on. You will get better I am sure. Your Panda friends understand and are here for you anytime x
Really hope this will help you. Thinking of you! <3
We do understand, dear Esther - been to that horrible place. Glad you will be safe and hope you get help and support you need. Keeping you in my thoughts xx
Thinking of you, dear Esther. This'll turn out great for you. I know it! xx
I hope you're getting help, Esther, that they're able to give you ways to cope and get through these difficult days. Thinking of you a lot. I know there are people who care about you (like us!) and connect with you. You can do this...you're so strong
Thanks a lot for your hugs and comments. I'm sorry that I didn't reply in a decent way. I owe you xoxo
I hope the professionals are able to help you find ways to get through your days... I'm glad you're getting help right now. Rooting for you so hard, Esther!
Wow...that's horrible. I hope you have someone you can call to at least talk to, like family or a friend so you're not totally alone. Dogs are good company at least...hope you're ok, Esther!
Really sorry xx
Thanks. Apparently there was something wrong with their phone..
Hope they can help - thinking of you xx
Will be thinking of you too, Esther. Hope you are ok. Glad you're getting help and glad you have people worried about you! Sending you lots of strength!!!
Sometimes we need a friend or a pro to help us through difficult times.
Thanks all. I'm on my own atm. Babysitting parents dog.
Is there anyone you can talk to Esther? Communication is key, dont suffer alone.
big hugs dear Esther xx
Let's meet on Turks & Caicos. We can walk on the beach and munch on bamboo shoots while watching the sun set.
Good idea Love. I'm having a week off so why not?
Ahh, if it's a week, we should meet in Cuba. We can sip bamboo mojitos whilst listening to live rumba on a beach in Havana. Heading that way in December.
I hope it'll get better...
Please hang in there Esther, I'm sure it will get better for you. If I can make it through, anyone can. Big hugs.
Lots of love, Esther - wishing you can feel hope again xx
I'm struggling and struggling to keep my head up.
You're not alone 🤗
And time and feelings cycle. Another week, and you will be on good form again
Same here, Esther. I'm feeling the loneliness quite powerful at the moment. Hope it gets better for you soon!
I don't know Nixi. I was happy with someone's company but guess he didn't like it that much
I understand the feeling esther, life is hard. Esp when all you can see is black. It does get better though, you just gotta hold on.
I'm sorry to hear Esther. You can always text me!
Well done, I am coming back from injury so did a little 20 minutes earlier. If your weather was anything like here, you chose a nice cool day!
Well done, Esther!! That had to feel great!
Oh, I added the book to my wish list. Can't wait till my next book order!
Sadly, no one can see how we feel. But it's nice to be complimented, I suppose. Remember, they didn't have to say anything. They're being nice, which is always pleasant!
I feel the exact same way and it's starting feel heavy on me
Oh Esther you're beautiful! May you get to a place where you can enjoy it. Wishing you hope for no and keeping you in my thoughts xx
I don't know what you like on the outside, but you are beautiful on the inside. I see longing in the sadness for the most precious gifts: love, compassion & connection. Embrace sadness, it points to the divine within you.
Hi, Esther! 🤗 Hope you are able to have a good evening. 💖
I will snuggle up to you in spirit and hold your hand and just sit, comforting you. :)
Thinking of you - several people have recommended that book to me but I've been afraid to try it (for now)
Thanks Love and Manda. I did have a good night thanks to soccer and friends.
And Cindy I'm at the 'bad times' part of the book so it just feels like it's about me. A lot of recognition.
I'm going to have to look into this book. Thanks for mentioning it! 💖
It's lovely Manda. A bit sad sometimes but I think it's a mustread