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5 Esther B
29 Jun 2019 ·
Had a lovely day with my niece. I know I must be tough about date ignoring my messages but its painful. I'm still human. I probably deserve better but that's obviously never going to happen
Jen B
29 Jun 2019 ·

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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Reba H
30 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 ·

It is painful, having been there myself quite recently, I empathise but no getting round it. I know too how hard it is to keep going and have hope, but fingers crossed for you xx

Shelley H
30 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jul 2019 ·

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Jeff M
01 Jul 2019 ·

That happens to me when I manage to get the courage to go on a date. Usually, I like the other person more than she likes me, and then no response. But there are others, and you are so awesome, you deserve someone who likes you too!

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5 Esther B
28 Jun 2019 ·
Down about friendship / date / future perspective.. what not?
Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
28 Jun 2019 ·

I hope even if things don't work out relationship-wise, you end up with a friend.

Silke V
28 Jun 2019 ·

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me M
28 Jun 2019 ·

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Josie M
28 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
28 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
28 Jun 2019 ·

Sorry you've been feeling low, dear Esther - been thinking of you and good to see posts again (I've been/am ill so sorry I haven't yet replied to your lovely email:) ). Like Jeff, hope maybe there are other possibilities?

John T
28 Jun 2019 ·

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28 Jun 2019 ·

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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29 Jun 2019 ·

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5 Esther B
20 Jun 2019 ·
Therapy, gym, reading in bed
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20 Jun 2019 ·

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20 Jun 2019 ·

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20 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
21 Jun 2019 ·

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21 Jun 2019 ·

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21 Jun 2019 ·

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4 Esther B
18 Jun 2019 ·
Supposed evaluate my new meds but psychiatrist is sick. Still. She was sick last week as well. Now I have to wait another week and I feel like ****
Jeff M
18 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
18 Jun 2019 ·

Ugh, that stinks. Is there someone else you can work with?

John T
18 Jun 2019 ·

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Esther B
18 Jun 2019 ·

Not really Jeff. But told therapists about how I feel.

Jeff M
18 Jun 2019 ·

Nothing worse than not being able to get the help you need... I hope you have someone you're able to work with at least to help get through the next week. *Big hugs*

nixiblu .
18 Jun 2019 ·

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Anonmous A
18 Jun 2019 ·

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Anonmous A
18 Jun 2019 ·

Hang in there. Thinking of you.

Reba H
19 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
20 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
20 Jun 2019 ·

Hope the time passes until your next appointment quickly. Hang on tight until then. I know you can do it! xx

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3 Esther B
16 Jun 2019 ·
Don't wanna go to sleep cause the mornings are so hard. They make me anxious and depressed.
me M
16 Jun 2019 ·

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17 Jun 2019 ·

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17 Jun 2019 ·

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17 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
17 Jun 2019 ·

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17 Jun 2019 ·

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18 Jun 2019 ·

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18 Jun 2019 ·

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4 Esther B
15 Jun 2019 ·
Yesterday was horrible. Almost ended in crisis. Went home with parents just to be safe. Today a little bit better.
Penelope P
16 Jun 2019 ·

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16 Jun 2019 ·

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16 Jun 2019 ·

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16 Jun 2019 ·

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15 Jun 2019 ·

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3 Esther B
12 Jun 2019 ·
Headache is driving me crazy. Wanna sleep. Afraid I can't make it to therapy tomorrow or do anything.
Jen B
12 Jun 2019 ·

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12 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
12 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
12 Jun 2019 ·

Hope your head is feeling better & that you may have gotten a nap in.

nixiblu .
12 Jun 2019 ·

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13 Jun 2019 ·

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13 Jun 2019 ·

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13 Jun 2019 ·

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5 Esther B
10 Jun 2019 ·
Was down but mum came over. We cycled through the city and went to cinema.
Zoe D
10 Jun 2019 ·

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10 Jun 2019 · NEW

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Jeff M
10 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
10 Jun 2019 ·

That sounds like a good day! Glad you were able to do something fun to elevate your mood!

Gy G
10 Jun 2019 ·

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Robert H
11 Jun 2019 ·

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11 Jun 2019 ·

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Aya N
11 Jun 2019 ·

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11 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
11 Jun 2019 ·

That sounds like a great day! Glad your mood improved. xx

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4 Esther B
08 Jun 2019 ·
Feeling sick. Sweaty, headache, nauseous. Beating myself up for being in bed.
Brandt B
08 Jun 2019 ·

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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09 Jun 2019 ·

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09 Jun 2019 ·

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09 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
09 Jun 2019 ·

It's ok to be in bed and take it easy...hope you feel better soon!

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5 Esther B
07 Jun 2019 ·
Work - errands - drinks with ppl from therapy
Penelope P
07 Jun 2019 ·

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Jenny D
08 Jun 2019 ·

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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08 Jun 2019 ·

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09 Jun 2019 ·

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7 Esther B
06 Jun 2019 ·
May 1st was my 6 year Pandaversary. I just realise that now. 🥰
nixiblu .
06 Jun 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
06 Jun 2019 ·

Amazing. 👩‍🎓👋👋

Gy G
06 Jun 2019 ·

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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Spacekitten V
06 Jun 2019 ·

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Natalie C
06 Jun 2019 ·

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Jenny D
07 Jun 2019 ·

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Jenny D
07 Jun 2019 ·

Very nice

Reba H
07 Jun 2019 ·

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Silke V
07 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
07 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
07 Jun 2019 ·

Aw, happy pandaversary, Estherbear! We are so happy to have you here!

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5 Esther B
06 Jun 2019 ·
Had therapy from 9 till 4. Long day. Managed to go to pilates & bodyshape afterwards. Feeling very anxious and down. Probably withdrawal from Xanax Only took 0.5 mg a day. What a **** benzodiazepine
Tuxi A
06 Jun 2019 ·

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John T
06 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
06 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
06 Jun 2019 ·

Getting that exercise in helps...as hard as it is, at least you can feel good knowing you did it!

Gy G
06 Jun 2019 ·

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Melody L
06 Jun 2019 ·

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06 Jun 2019 ·

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07 Jun 2019 ·

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07 Jun 2019 ·

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5 Esther B
04 Jun 2019 ·
Therapy and tea with friend. Headache. Need to reduce and quit Xanax. Hopefully it all goes well.
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04 Jun 2019 ·

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Melody L
04 Jun 2019 ·

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Robert H
05 Jun 2019 ·

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05 Jun 2019 ·

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Jeff M
05 Jun 2019 ·

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Silke V
05 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
05 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
05 Jun 2019 ·

Good luck getting off it. I got addicted to Klonopin & it was hard to quit. Lots of rebound anxiety. I hope yours goes much more smoothly. Just remember you'll make it out alive & will feel better not relying on it. 💖

John T
05 Jun 2019 ·

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Esther B
06 Jun 2019 ·

That must be hard Amanda! I've been having a lot of rebound anxiety as well. Not that much fun. I only had 0.5 mg though ^^

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5 Esther B
02 Jun 2019 ·
Sunburn. Spent 1 day at a dairy farm. Helped friend with milking the cows this morning. Love to be around animals.
Zoe D
02 Jun 2019 ·

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02 Jun 2019 ·

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02 Jun 2019 ·

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02 Jun 2019 ·

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02 Jun 2019 ·

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Bipolar Bear .
02 Jun 2019 ·

That's awesome! I would love to do that, I love working with animals :)

John T
03 Jun 2019 ·

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Aya N
03 Jun 2019 ·

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03 Jun 2019 ·

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nixiblu .
03 Jun 2019 ·

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Albertine M
03 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
04 Jun 2019 ·

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Manda P
04 Jun 2019 ·

That sounds really great! Something about animals make you feel comfortable. Glad you had that opportunity! ❤️

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5 Esther B
29 May 2019 ·
Had a decent day.
John T
29 May 2019 ·

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John T
29 May 2019 ·

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Aya N
29 May 2019 ·

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Jeff M
29 May 2019 ·

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Jeff M
29 May 2019 ·

That's so good to see! Honestly, most days I feel like a 5 or decent ranking is the best I can hope for. It helps to remember that some days can be decent to good, too, when you're having a tough one!

Manda P
29 May 2019 ·

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29 May 2019 ·

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29 May 2019 ·

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29 May 2019 ·

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30 May 2019 ·

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Esther B
30 May 2019 ·

Thanks all for the hugs. And decent is the best I can get for now so I'm quite content.

Albertine M
31 May 2019 ·

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2 Esther B
26 May 2019 ·
Depressed and anxious. Started new antidepressant 2 weeks ago. Maybe I just need to hold on a bit longer but it's so **** hard. I just wanna sleep all day and disappear.
me M
26 May 2019 ·

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26 May 2019 ·

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26 May 2019 ·

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John T
26 May 2019 ·

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Melody L
26 May 2019 ·

That 'i want to disappear' feeling is familiar...

Melody L
26 May 2019 ·

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Manda P
26 May 2019 ·

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Manda P
26 May 2019 ·

Thinking of you, Esther. I hope the new AD helps you. Just hold on for a little longer to give it time to work. xx

Natalie C
26 May 2019 ·

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Reba H
27 May 2019 ·

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Albertine M
27 May 2019 ·

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Albertine M
27 May 2019 ·

Hope you can hang on, certainly when I started it took at least that long to have an effect. You're in my thoughts xx

Lydia R
27 May 2019 ·

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27 May 2019 ·

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Esther B
28 May 2019 ·

Thanks all. I've added my mail address in the Google doc! :)

Albertine M
29 May 2019 ·

Woo!

Manda P
29 May 2019 ·

Yay!!

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2 Esther B
12 May 2019 ·
Guess this was almost the worst week of my life. Never felt this depressed. Slept a lot. Barely ate. No energy. Vicious circle.
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12 May 2019 ·

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12 May 2019 ·

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12 May 2019 ·

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12 May 2019 ·

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12 May 2019 ·

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13 May 2019 ·

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13 May 2019 ·

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13 May 2019 ·

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13 May 2019 ·

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Jeff M
13 May 2019 ·

It is...the less you eat and do, the worse you feel. But it's so hard to do those things. I understand how hard it is to get out of that circle. I wish I had a way to help you, other than empathizing.

Jeff M
13 May 2019 ·

Really rooting for you, Esther. Any time you want someone to talk to, please reach out!

Jeff M
13 May 2019 ·

Email is in that pandadocs thing: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1yzampFBAKcZ1MC-96LRfqts4DgEWGxnA-MjcPEiorLk/edit?usp=drivesdk

nixiblu .
13 May 2019 ·

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13 May 2019 ·

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Albertine M
13 May 2019 ·

All of us want to help, dear Esther - reach out if you want. Lots of love xx

Melody L
14 May 2019 ·

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2 Esther B
06 May 2019 ·
No appetite. Anxious, depressed. Can't take this feeling. Want to give up.
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06 May 2019 ·

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06 May 2019 ·

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Jeff M
06 May 2019 ·

Sending you lots of strength, Esther. I'm always thinking of you and rooting for you!

Robert H
06 May 2019 ·

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06 May 2019 ·

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06 May 2019 ·

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06 May 2019 ·

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me M
06 May 2019 ·

Please don't give up, hugs

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06 May 2019 ·

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06 May 2019 ·

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Albertine M
06 May 2019 ·

Lots of love, Esther - please hang in there. You're in my thoughts xx

Esther B
07 May 2019 ·

Thanks all xoxo

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07 May 2019 ·

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Manda P
07 May 2019 ·

Thinking of you, Esther. Don't give up. I know you will make it through this. You've got Pandas by your side. xx

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12 May 2019 ·

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4 Esther B
02 May 2019 ·
Anxious to be on my own. Probably because I'm in my 'child mode', feeling unsafe like a little child without her parents around. Hard to cope with. Therapy is helping but not 24/7.
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02 May 2019 ·

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02 May 2019 ·

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John T
02 May 2019 ·

I'm sure you have people to message if you need to talk. I know you are in touch with Silke and you can find me at https://instagram.com/jwtownshend I'll listen to you when you need to talk 😊

Jeff M
02 May 2019 ·

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Jeff M
02 May 2019 ·

I understand that feeling. You want comfort and protection and that childlike comfort of not having to worry about anything and being able to just live. I wish there was more of that in later life...

Jeff M
02 May 2019 ·

As John said, we're here if you need to chat. I put my contact info on his google docs thing too.

John T
02 May 2019 ·

https://goo.gl/Ufb286 panda pals (don't use your main email address in case of spam etc.)

Albertine M
02 May 2019 ·

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Albertine M
02 May 2019 ·

Mine is on there too Esther xx

Manda P
03 May 2019 ·

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Manda P
03 May 2019 ·

Same, Esther. We are here for you! ❤️

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2 Esther B
30 Apr 2019 ·
Someone from former therapy group committed s*****. I'm feeling very low and unsafe now.
John T
30 Apr 2019 ·

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John T
30 Apr 2019 ·

People suffer but they it's also possible to feel better with some support and help. Keep going Esther. Keep going.

Esther B
30 Apr 2019 ·

I will try! Not ready to give up yet.

John T
30 Apr 2019 ·

Well done. Also, I'm sorry, it's very difficult when people are taken away like that.

Albertine M
30 Apr 2019 ·

Sorry to hear this, Esther - that's sad news and I get how it affects you too. So glad to hear you want to keep trying! Lots of love and strength xx

Jeff M
30 Apr 2019 ·

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Jeff M
30 Apr 2019 ·

That's so sad...I'm sorry. From our perspective, we see you as so strong getting through this and keeping on. I think you're amazing, Esther, and I know you can do this. Is there someone you can talk to about how this news impacts you?

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01 May 2019 ·

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