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5 Jeff M
2d ·
Cold run last night. Struggling to get my miles back up again; feeling behind on training already! And January is barely 1/2 over. Big storm coming this weekend. Gonna be a lot of shoveling. Tired.
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5 Jeff M
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I've been so tired in the evenings this week. Last night, just wanted to relax, and dog was frantic. Exhausting. But feeling ok this morning. Run tonight and hopefully with people Saturday morning...
Jeff M
3d ·

...before the snow hits! We're supposed to get at least 18 inches Saturday through Monday. Ugh. I have a snowblower, but it hasn't been used in a while and probably won't work (and I'm kinda afraid of it...it's heavy and difficult).

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4 Jeff M
4d ·
Was so tired last night, radio show was a slog. Just wanted to sleep. Really anxious today, making me feel jittery and ill. Managed 3 miles on treadmill this morning. Ugh, feel like it's a rough day.
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Well done for running three miles!! That sounds like a lot, especially if you're feeling under the weather!

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5 Jeff M
5d ·
Last night's group run was nice. Extremely grateful my leg is feeling better. Ran 3 days in a row, and it's sore but not as bad as it was! Super cold again today. Poor night's sleep.
Jeff M
5d ·

Stressed that dog's paw isn't getting better, which means they'll probably have to do surgery to remove the claw, which will be super expensive and stressful (anesthesia is scary for dogs...). Ugh.

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5 Jeff M
6d ·
Not bad this morning. Feeling encouraged that leg doesn't hurt much after running Sat and Sun. Cold still nagging but better. Nice to see some improvement in things. Solid 5.5 today, I think.
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5 Jeff M
7d ·
Ran 6 miles yesterday, 5 this morning, all on icy trails, 15F both days. Super cold, my body not in the shape I was, lungs hurt from my cold. But felt good to move and get outside.
Jeff M
7d ·

Lonely weekend...

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7d ·

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John T
7d ·

Jeff that's still a very good run for -10C temperatures. I would've just stayed inside. You are a very motivated runner. Do you have family you could visit when you feel lonely?

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7d ·

That's the spirit Jeff! Welldone for bracing the cold and getting out there and staying active! :D

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Jeff M
7d ·

Thanks, pandas. I'm trying ebuild up my endurance again. Last few months have derailed my running.

Jeff M
7d ·

@John I don't mind the lonely weekends too much, I guess. No family local. Trying to stay off social media, as that makes me feel more left out.

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Dang, Jeff! Get out there & kick a** why don't you! Awesome.

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4 Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·
Beer dinner last night. Food and drink were good, but feeling very gross this morning. Part of it is how alone I felt. Didn't feel a part of these people, they're not my friends.
Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

Hard to hear about all the things they're planning (talking about it with me sitting there). Hard to hear how happy they are with their families and friends.

Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

I'm well aware my issues set me apart and make it hard for people to include me. I'm well aware that much of my being left out is in my head (they don't think of me at all, tbh, it's not like they're excluding me out of malice...mostly).

Rob W
11 Jan 2019 ·

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Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

That doesn't make it easier. I can't just fix it. I hate wanting/needing people. Why can't I just be ok living my life completely alone? You'd think I'd be good at that by now...I've had my entire life of loneliness to get used to it.

Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

Maybe I need to stop doing these activities around people and avoid these opportunities to see what they're doing and how they're enjoying life. But I want to appreciate the activities too...

Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

And now it's the weekend. I have nothing to do. There are runs I can join with others, but I'm not sure if I can physically do it right now (with this nagging cold and my leg issue). And the weather is supposed to be so cold and wet/snowy!

Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

Stress and anxiety over the dog's poor issues (I took cone off him this morning...saw him licking his paw still...)

Jeff M
11 Jan 2019 ·

I just want things to be better. I don't even know what I want to be better...I just don't want to feel sad and alone and overwhelmed and tired mentally and weak mentally and emotionally.

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11 Jan 2019 ·

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11 Jan 2019 ·

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Rob W
11 Jan 2019 ·

I play a video game called Destiny 2 I joined a clan for people with anxiety issues and social problems. We chat together through an app called Discord. I've met so many wonderful people there and we have become great friends. If something like that

Rob W
11 Jan 2019 ·

Interests you, maybe you can join us? We have a UK division and a North American. They also play different games as well. Only catch is we're PlayStation 4. The clan is called “On Silent Wings” google it. My user name is Rdubs.

Rob W
11 Jan 2019 ·

Ages vary from 16 to 60 guys and girls are welcome. They even have a separate ladies section that's guys can't get into.

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11 Jan 2019 ·

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Manda P
11 Jan 2019 ·

Oh, Jeff. I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you a real hug. I think it's totally natural to not want to feel alone. Have you ever considered looking into depression? Your GP may be able to prescribe antidepressants but mental health specialists are..

Manda P
11 Jan 2019 ·

...obviously the way to go. You just seem to have been in a dark mood for awhile now. I know how awful that is & I want you to feel better.

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11 Jan 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
10 Jan 2019 ·
Poor, pathetic dog trying to sleep in his cone last night, kept whining, wouldn't let me sleep. Bunch of snow last night and so cold today! Going to be a hard, long day.
Jeff M
10 Jan 2019 ·

Almost can't bear to put that thing on him again when I go to work. But the vet says he can't lick his paw, and he does want to. Sigh.

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Manda P
10 Jan 2019 ·

Ugh, that doesn't sound good. I hope he heals quickly. Bitter cold & snow here too. 60 degrees Fahrenheit earlier this week!

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10 Jan 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
09 Jan 2019 ·
Poor dog. Have to leave him in a cone whenever I'm not with him (all day, all night). Have to soak his sore foot for 10 mins (right!). Have to keep him from being active. Ugh, I mean poor me!
Jeff M
09 Jan 2019 ·

I have no idea how I'm going to do those things...He's a strong, active dog. Going to be a rough week, and that's just to verify he'll be ok and doesn't need surgery to remove the nail/fix the bone. Ugh...Stressful!

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09 Jan 2019 ·

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Natalie C
09 Jan 2019 ·

Sending big hugs & strength for the difficult week ahead😕. Your dog will probably be bouncing around like nothing's happened. Whilst you are worrying :(

Natalie C
09 Jan 2019 ·

Hope you & dog are feeling better very soon x

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Manda P
09 Jan 2019 ·

Aw, I didn't know your dog got hurt. Sounds rough having to look after him like that. Hope he heals quickly!

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10 Jan 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
09 Jan 2019 ·
Cold still nagging. Taking dog to vet this morning to see about his paw. Feeling stress and anxiety this morning...
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09 Jan 2019 ·

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09 Jan 2019 ·

Hope anxiety goes away soon, little Jeffy

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5 Jeff M
08 Jan 2019 ·
Feeling a bit better today, though now I have a cough that hurts my throat. Dog hurt his paw yesterday and has me worried. I accidentally brushed it when wiping his paws off this AM. Aww :(
Jeff M
08 Jan 2019 ·

Felt so bad to hear him yelp! I thought he was walking on it better this morning, and then I went and made it worse. I hope he's ok and I don't have to pay a vet.

Jeff M
08 Jan 2019 ·

Did my run last night. My lungs hurt because of this cold, but it was good to run. I really enjoy this group of people. Slept weirdly last night after taking a nighttime cold medicine.

Cindy M
08 Jan 2019 ·

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Cindy M
08 Jan 2019 ·

Hope your dog is okay...good to hear that you're really enjoying the people you run with now

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08 Jan 2019 ·

Hugs to you and your dog :)!

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08 Jan 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
07 Jan 2019 ·
Almost no sleep last night due to this stupid cold. Called in sick today. Really don't want to spend another day on couch but head so bleary. Ugh. Have to run tonight too...
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07 Jan 2019 ·

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Alicia B
07 Jan 2019 ·

Are you sure you should run when feeling this way?

Melody L
07 Jan 2019 ·

Get well soon!

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07 Jan 2019 ·

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Cindy M
07 Jan 2019 ·

Hope you feel better soon

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08 Jan 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
05 Jan 2019 ·
Cold really messing me up. Skipped my run this morning. Laid around and done very little, other than laundry and de-Christmasifying the house. Bored...
Jeff M
05 Jan 2019 ·

Probably should have been less than a 5, but to some extent I'm appreciating the opportunity to lay around and watch TV and play with the dog. So I guess it's not all bad. Also, my leg feels a bit better. Was looking forward to running and...

Jeff M
05 Jan 2019 ·

...testing it out. Oh well. Maybe tomorrow. This 2019 year sucks so far. Can we skip it?

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05 Jan 2019 ·

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Alicia B
05 Jan 2019 ·

2019's just begun, let's give it time, eh? I know how hard it gets without exercise though. I'm so grateful for the inspiration you gave me to start jogging! Really hope you feel better and run soon :)

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05 Jan 2019 ·

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06 Jan 2019 ·

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Manda P
06 Jan 2019 ·

Yep, don't give up on 2019 yet!

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06 Jan 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
04 Jan 2019 ·
Gonna give this morning a 5 despite the annoying cold. Good run last night. Leg still sore but maybe a bit better. Trying hard to stay off Facebook. Trying hard to be stronger in the new year.
Jeff M
04 Jan 2019 ·

Woke up too late to do my morning exercise, which is annoying, and head feels bleary from this cold! But it's supposed to be warmer today! Yay for a tiny break from miserable winter.

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04 Jan 2019 ·

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04 Jan 2019 ·

Good luck fighting that addictive socialmedia monster!:) should take example from you and not go and trigger myself there...

Cindy M
04 Jan 2019 ·

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Cindy M
04 Jan 2019 ·

Hope it was warmer. Good luck with FB

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04 Jan 2019 ·

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Alicia B
04 Jan 2019 ·

Great idea about FB, Jeff! I've found it annoys me quite a while ago, so I just message people on there and post paintings (lately. I used to be a normal user). I might even believe the studies that say social media makes us depressed! I feel way

Alicia B
04 Jan 2019 ·

better without it.

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4 Jeff M
03 Jan 2019 ·
Been fighting a cold for a few days. Everyone at work is sick. It finally sunk in yesterday. Feeling bleary and gross today. Going to be a long day...
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03 Jan 2019 ·

Hope it was okay and that you feel better soon xx

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4 Jeff M
02 Jan 2019 ·
Rough night's sleep, so struggling this morning. Made mistake of letting on to parents in email how low I've been and got the whole 'buck up' and 'pray on it' response. Sigh. Crappy second Monday.
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02 Jan 2019 ·

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Cindy M
02 Jan 2019 ·

Sorry, Jeff xx

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02 Jan 2019 ·

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02 Jan 2019 ·

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Reba H
02 Jan 2019 ·

Yeah, I don't find praying on it helpful.

Kym S
03 Jan 2019 ·

Sounds awful :(

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4 Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·
I wanted to share this song because it fit me so well today and it's so beautiful, but no one cares on FB, and I'm trying to stay off it. I feel so alone. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMiFPHWQ5Yw
John T
02 Jan 2019 ·

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John T
02 Jan 2019 ·

Have you heard the mariner's revenge song?

Jeff M
02 Jan 2019 ·

Yes, I like that one a lot. Bachelor and the Bride is probably my favorite of theirs!

John T
02 Jan 2019 ·

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5 Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·
Not a bad day. Cooked a nice meal last night and watched a movie and went to bed. Today, ran around the bay (13.5 miles, it's a tradition), then a few beers with a 'friend', now my radio show.
Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·

My radio show is my favorite 2018 songs. It's literally 2 hours of perfect music. I told people about it in person and on FB. No one cares. No one's listening. F-ck them.

Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·

I always feel like I have to put 'friend' in quotes, because these people are not my friends. Facebook has ruined the word 'friend'. Acquaintance is too long and hard to type. But that's all they are.

Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·

Anyway, today's run was long and hard (with my leg and the bitter cold wind), but it's a tradition. Fourth year in a row! Good way to start the year. Leg is super sore now, though.

Jeff M
01 Jan 2019 ·

This very odd/weird guy (we think he's on the spectrum) joined for the run with his gf, a very cute (and weird) girl. I'm happy for him. But how the hell does he find someone and I never have been able to in my whole ***ing life?

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02 Jan 2019 ·

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4 Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·
2018 was a year like any other, with good and bad. For me, the good was running. I ran my first 50-miler and an incredibly hard 100k (65ish miles). The bad, I lost a good friend to s-cide and lost...
Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

her husband (my best friend) as he learned there wasn't room for me in his new life. In fact, it feels like I lost all my friends this year, and that's been a big struggle.

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

I had some good moments. My Monday running group has taken off and continues to be a positive time each week. Work has been manageable, and I got some kudos.

Nikole H
31 Dec 2018 ·

Sorry for your loss. :(

Natalie C
31 Dec 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

Bad moments always seem so much bigger. So many struggles with depression and leg injury that derailed running at end of the year. So many bad thoughts in a hard, scary world.

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

It doesn't matter that 2019 is a new year. That's arbitrary. There will be good and bad in 2019 as well. I hope the bad is more manageable and the good more prominent. Right now, it's hard to feel positive.

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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31 Dec 2018 ·

Always find it sad that life has to go like that. Unfortunately it's the reality. I truely hope 2019 will be better for you. Big hug!!

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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Manda P
31 Dec 2018 ·

I hope 2019 turns out to be better than you ever expected, Jeff. This could be your year.

Cindy M
31 Dec 2018 ·

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Cindy M
31 Dec 2018 ·

Best wishes for 2019 - and don't forget how much you do for your fellow Pandas. xx

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01 Jan 2019 ·

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3 Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·
I hate 'New Years Eve' - the holiday where it is least socially acceptable to be alone. I work today (great, two Mondays in one week), will go home and make dinner and drink beer and go to bed early.
Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

It's just another day like every other day in which I spend it alone and unwanted.

Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

I will probably post something later about this weird year. Lot of ruminations about it. But it seems every year we wish for a better next year. It's like thinking the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. It's just the same grass.

Jeff M
31 Dec 2018 ·

Same day every day. Things don't get better or worse. They're always good and bad. Perspective.

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31 Dec 2018 ·

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John T
31 Dec 2018 ·

I am going to bed at 8:30pm and I am going to happily accept it and enjoy it! I can do this, but unlike you I can't run a marathon (or ultra!). We all have strengths and weaknesses to work on. Keep going Jeff!

John T
31 Dec 2018 ·

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Manda P
31 Dec 2018 ·

Hope you end up enjoying your night, Jeff. I doubt I'll be up for the new year & only regret it a super tiny bit.

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01 Jan 2019 ·

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