Glad your leg is feeling better already! I'm sure that makes running a ton easier 😁
Beautiful day, and I'm sitting here with a beer still unable to relax, feeling sorry for myself.
It'll be ok Jeff, I know you'll get your head back into it!
I guess at this point it's more important my legs are ok than that I get all the miles. I don't know anymore.
You did a great run just yesterday, give your legd a break 😀 and enjoy the sunshine from a terrace or bench in a park!
Sounds like a great day! Well done for finishing, even with a sore ancle
Sounds like a great day! Good to see you in the green Jeff 😊
Was thinking of you - glad it went well, including the social bit
Hopefully your legs feel better tomorrow. Think about the fun you will have and the satisfaction when you finish, no matter the time!
Good luck! You can do it!
How did the race go? Was it fun?? How were your legs holding up?
Good race! Legs felt ok (except my ankle). Thanks for asking!
Last night was fun though! I like hanging out with this friend. The fact that she's a lesbian makes me feel more at ease. No need to impress...always more comfortably myself around women I don't have a shot with! :)
Last night was probably the best playlist I've done for my radio show. Too bad no one listened.
You should see a doctor, could be bronchitis or something. It feels like a weight on your chest.
I agree with Alicia get to a doctor 👩🏾⚕️
It's ok now...not really a weight, just breathing issues I think. Bothers me more in the morning...Thanks, pandas!
Look after yourself, dear Jeff xx
Glad you're feeling better 🤗
Do you have chronic problems? If this is new I agree you should get to a doctor. Glad you're feeling better!
It's a great thing to realise, well done!
That's a lot of suck.
I think I'm feeling self-pity, which is the worst kind of suck because it's all internal. Gotta stop that. Easy trap to fall into on Monday morning...
I pity the fool -Mr T
Hope your day has improved, Jeff.
Good on you for getting out there even in crappy weather! Proud of you
Try to think of the progress you have made rather than the end goal
But you still managed to go. Be proud of that.
20 miles in a day! Far better than I could ever manage, well done!
I just ran 4 k so who's the boss? You are!
Totally counts, Esther! Any running is great! :)
Hope it goes well tomorrow
What kind of work are you in? Sounds stressful, busy.
It's great to see green from you, Jeff.
Thanks, pandas! I think I choose 5 too often...need to be better at 6s. Love, we just won a new contract, which means I'll be super busy getting up to speed on it before we start the work. Ugh.
Yay for green!! Xxx
Glad to hear you're doing well! Busy work is a blessing in disguise 😉
You were an honourary Brit for the day, Jeff!
Do Brits complain a lot about the weather? I know it rained all the time where my sister lived for a few years (I forget where that was), and they seldom saw the sun...
Weather is go to Brit smalltalk
Good or bad weather... mostly rain
Went for a run today, myself. Ran instead of jogging, with bits of walking in between, I think this is healthier way for me to get back into it.
It's a cliché but you genuinely inspire people Jeff!
Good for you, John! I love seeing other people out there running. Sometimes I like to run in the rain...especially when it's hot. Less embarrassing when I get all sweaty! :)
The French also LOVE talking about how TERRIBLE the weather is. The ones who live in the south of France cracked me up with that all the time :) You made me see how talking about the weather can be a good thing, though :)
Weather can be a metaphor for moods. I like forecasting.
I like rain :D
I tell people it got fun when I started running with other people. I made some new friends and found how running and beer (two things I enjoy) could combine. I started running long distances because of those people and their encouragement.
I've always been a little bit obsessive about things that I get into. Unfortunately, I feel like I don't have much in my life. Work is just a job to get through and pay the bills. I am and forever will be alone. I don't deal with other people well...
So when I find something I'm (relatively) good at and enjoy, it's very important to me. That's why I stress about running so much and why it's so important to me. It often feels like it's all I have. So when I'm doing good, I'm in good spirits...
...and when it's going bad, I really stress over it. I feel like if it wasn't running, it would be something less positive. Or, worse yet, it would be nothing.
Unfortunately, last year, the people I ran with who I thought had become good friends, phased me out completely. I don't know why still, and it bothers me so much. This weekend, they did a huge run, all planning a big spring race together...
...and they posted all about it on social media and partied after and such. I would have loved to have been a part of that again.
I signed up for three crazy long races this year in hopes it would keep me into running, which was going to be more challenging without that support. The first big race is just over a month away - a 50 miler.
My training has not been going that well. I don't run well in the winter...it's so cold, my lungs hurt (I have asthma and breathing issues when running anyway), and it's hard on my psychologically to be uncomfortable.
That's been true the last two years...I struggle mentally in winter and get re-energized in spring. It's reassuring to know that can happen this year too. Unfortunately, spring decided not to show up this year, so even if the weather improves...
...it's well behind the pace of the last few years, which means so is my training. The death of my friend and my 2-week vacation also set me back. I should be doing long weekend runs, and I haven't been. Not long enough anyway...
I'm getting very stressed and anxious about my training. It's so hard to push through these long runs by myself. No one understands how important this is to me or why it's so important, and I don't have anyone to talk to about these things.
People say 'oh, 16 miles is great! I could never do that!', and I understand that, but it's not good enough to me or for my training. I should have run 30, but feeling so crummy after 16 is quite worrisome.
I know it may not be healthy to obsess over something that's supposed to be fun and positive, and the fact that it causes anxiety is probably not good. But I have nothing else, I feel. So I could quit or drop the race, but I'd feel worse.
I wish I had a better outlet to get these things out. I wish someone understood why it's important. I talked to my parents last night (by which I mean that my mother talks and I have to listen and I never get to say anything)...
...and it just reminds me that they don't really care that much anymore...They're getting old, and I have to accept that. So again, I'm alone in dealing with things.
I lay awake last night worrying about the running and training, my job (which is getting very busy again and is going to hurt my training just when it should have let up), and money ($1200 on car repairs and CC debt)...
So I'm struggling this morning, facing another 20-degree 'spring' day and wondering how I'm going to deal with everything by myself. Always by myself.
I give this a 4, because I should have perspective. But I feel very low and overwhelmed today. Maybe getting this out here will help. I appreciate having this as an anonymous venting place.
Sorry for the massive post, pandas. I'm sure no one will read all this (and that's ok! I wouldn't want to either).
I read it, Jeff 🙂
I read it too and here is a *hug* for your pain. I identify with some of your story. It sucks when friends shut you out. It happened to me recently and I took it very hard.
Thank you, pandas. :) I appreciate the thoughts...
Came back here to post another thought I had: Last year, I did 50+ miles during a 12-hour race. It was an easier course than next month's will be, but I hadn't done near the training for that last year, and I got through it!
There you go Jeff. What the problem is anxiety, and hitting the road and doing what you obviously love doing is helping. Or at least from an outside point of view. So keep going! Writing stuff down helps sort things out, as you know.
The determination you've shown in your running will pull you through this. John is right about writing stuff down too. It's really helped me.
I like reading your rationalization.
i understand <3 running meant a lot to me too! i love hearing you talk about it so don't stop!
You can do this 50 miler, Jeff! I have faith in you. It's clearly important, so you'll find a way. It's also good that you're aware of your feelings about it
I read it all too, and I feel like I know more about you, as well as your running. I found it really interesting and thought provoking, and I'm glad you have MP but understand you want other options too. Still wish I could hang out with you! xx
You're all so nice and supportive. Thank you! Writing it out here helped me, I think. Not that I feel any less anxious about it, but it helps to get it out!
Thanks for sharing this, Jeff. It's one of the times you've really let us in. Those “friends” that disappeared aren't even worth using your brain power to let bother you. You are an incredible person & they are really missing out. I hope you are...
...able to get where you want to be with your running. *big hugs*
Big hugs Jeff x
We care about you and I looove hearing about your running and your dog! Those are two important things ❤️
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, Jeff - you're loved so much here. Stay safe and hang in there
You're in my thoughts xx
I get it. I just had about same amount in repairs myself. Rodent damage.
At least you got out there and gave it a shot. Those conditions sound awful and surely are atypical? . . . Sorry to hear you are feeling overwhelmed and lonely! Perhaps you could call/meet a friend/family member. Sending panda love!
Acknowledge the things you achieve. You didn't manage 30 today but damn , I could do 8 let alone 16 miles. Well one for what you did do .
Lots of love and strength to you, dear Jeff xx
16 miles is still super impressive at any pace! You'll excel once it's warmer out!
30 miles, wow! Don't be too hard on yourself Jeff. I think you are doing really well. Admire your motivation! Also, it was nice for your friend that you celebrated your birthday with her 😁
I ran 30 meters yesterday. Yeah, im a bad@$$! I know, I know.
Don't feel guilty it won't motivate you
Thanks, pandas. :)
Don't feel guilty. You deserve breaks! 30 miles is a long drive to me. 😂
Yep, we've still got more snow coming. SURELY, winter will end one day. It's being really rude sticking around like this.