...before the snow hits! We're supposed to get at least 18 inches Saturday through Monday. Ugh. I have a snowblower, but it hasn't been used in a while and probably won't work (and I'm kinda afraid of it...it's heavy and difficult).
Well done for running three miles!! That sounds like a lot, especially if you're feeling under the weather!
Stressed that dog's paw isn't getting better, which means they'll probably have to do surgery to remove the claw, which will be super expensive and stressful (anesthesia is scary for dogs...). Ugh.
Hope there is still time for your dog to get better
Woo for not bad!
Jeff that's still a very good run for -10C temperatures. I would've just stayed inside. You are a very motivated runner. Do you have family you could visit when you feel lonely?
That's the spirit Jeff! Welldone for bracing the cold and getting out there and staying active! :D
Thanks, pandas. I'm trying ebuild up my endurance again. Last few months have derailed my running.
@John I don't mind the lonely weekends too much, I guess. No family local. Trying to stay off social media, as that makes me feel more left out.
Dang, Jeff! Get out there & kick a** why don't you! Awesome.
Hard to hear about all the things they're planning (talking about it with me sitting there). Hard to hear how happy they are with their families and friends.
I'm well aware my issues set me apart and make it hard for people to include me. I'm well aware that much of my being left out is in my head (they don't think of me at all, tbh, it's not like they're excluding me out of malice...mostly).
That doesn't make it easier. I can't just fix it. I hate wanting/needing people. Why can't I just be ok living my life completely alone? You'd think I'd be good at that by now...I've had my entire life of loneliness to get used to it.
Maybe I need to stop doing these activities around people and avoid these opportunities to see what they're doing and how they're enjoying life. But I want to appreciate the activities too...
And now it's the weekend. I have nothing to do. There are runs I can join with others, but I'm not sure if I can physically do it right now (with this nagging cold and my leg issue). And the weather is supposed to be so cold and wet/snowy!
Stress and anxiety over the dog's poor issues (I took cone off him this morning...saw him licking his paw still...)
I just want things to be better. I don't even know what I want to be better...I just don't want to feel sad and alone and overwhelmed and tired mentally and weak mentally and emotionally.
I play a video game called Destiny 2 I joined a clan for people with anxiety issues and social problems. We chat together through an app called Discord. I've met so many wonderful people there and we have become great friends. If something like that
Interests you, maybe you can join us? We have a UK division and a North American. They also play different games as well. Only catch is we're PlayStation 4. The clan is called “On Silent Wings” google it. My user name is Rdubs.
Ages vary from 16 to 60 guys and girls are welcome. They even have a separate ladies section that's guys can't get into.
Oh, Jeff. I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you a real hug. I think it's totally natural to not want to feel alone. Have you ever considered looking into depression? Your GP may be able to prescribe antidepressants but mental health specialists are..
...obviously the way to go. You just seem to have been in a dark mood for awhile now. I know how awful that is & I want you to feel better.
Almost can't bear to put that thing on him again when I go to work. But the vet says he can't lick his paw, and he does want to. Sigh.
Ugh, that doesn't sound good. I hope he heals quickly. Bitter cold & snow here too. 60 degrees Fahrenheit earlier this week!
I have no idea how I'm going to do those things...He's a strong, active dog. Going to be a rough week, and that's just to verify he'll be ok and doesn't need surgery to remove the nail/fix the bone. Ugh...Stressful!
Sending big hugs & strength for the difficult week ahead😕. Your dog will probably be bouncing around like nothing's happened. Whilst you are worrying :(
Hope you & dog are feeling better very soon x
Aw, I didn't know your dog got hurt. Sounds rough having to look after him like that. Hope he heals quickly!
Hope anxiety goes away soon, little Jeffy
Felt so bad to hear him yelp! I thought he was walking on it better this morning, and then I went and made it worse. I hope he's ok and I don't have to pay a vet.
Did my run last night. My lungs hurt because of this cold, but it was good to run. I really enjoy this group of people. Slept weirdly last night after taking a nighttime cold medicine.
Hope your dog is okay...good to hear that you're really enjoying the people you run with now
Hugs to you and your dog :)!
Are you sure you should run when feeling this way?
Get well soon!
Hope you feel better soon
Probably should have been less than a 5, but to some extent I'm appreciating the opportunity to lay around and watch TV and play with the dog. So I guess it's not all bad. Also, my leg feels a bit better. Was looking forward to running and...
...testing it out. Oh well. Maybe tomorrow. This 2019 year sucks so far. Can we skip it?
2019's just begun, let's give it time, eh? I know how hard it gets without exercise though. I'm so grateful for the inspiration you gave me to start jogging! Really hope you feel better and run soon :)
Yep, don't give up on 2019 yet!
Woke up too late to do my morning exercise, which is annoying, and head feels bleary from this cold! But it's supposed to be warmer today! Yay for a tiny break from miserable winter.
Good luck fighting that addictive socialmedia monster!:) should take example from you and not go and trigger myself there...
Hope it was warmer. Good luck with FB
Great idea about FB, Jeff! I've found it annoys me quite a while ago, so I just message people on there and post paintings (lately. I used to be a normal user). I might even believe the studies that say social media makes us depressed! I feel way
better without it.
Hope it was okay and that you feel better soon xx
Sorry, Jeff xx
Yeah, I don't find praying on it helpful.
Sounds awful :(
Have you heard the mariner's revenge song?
Yes, I like that one a lot. Bachelor and the Bride is probably my favorite of theirs!
My radio show is my favorite 2018 songs. It's literally 2 hours of perfect music. I told people about it in person and on FB. No one cares. No one's listening. F-ck them.
I always feel like I have to put 'friend' in quotes, because these people are not my friends. Facebook has ruined the word 'friend'. Acquaintance is too long and hard to type. But that's all they are.
Anyway, today's run was long and hard (with my leg and the bitter cold wind), but it's a tradition. Fourth year in a row! Good way to start the year. Leg is super sore now, though.
This very odd/weird guy (we think he's on the spectrum) joined for the run with his gf, a very cute (and weird) girl. I'm happy for him. But how the hell does he find someone and I never have been able to in my whole ***ing life?
her husband (my best friend) as he learned there wasn't room for me in his new life. In fact, it feels like I lost all my friends this year, and that's been a big struggle.
I had some good moments. My Monday running group has taken off and continues to be a positive time each week. Work has been manageable, and I got some kudos.
Sorry for your loss. :(
Bad moments always seem so much bigger. So many struggles with depression and leg injury that derailed running at end of the year. So many bad thoughts in a hard, scary world.
It doesn't matter that 2019 is a new year. That's arbitrary. There will be good and bad in 2019 as well. I hope the bad is more manageable and the good more prominent. Right now, it's hard to feel positive.
Always find it sad that life has to go like that. Unfortunately it's the reality. I truely hope 2019 will be better for you. Big hug!!
I hope 2019 turns out to be better than you ever expected, Jeff. This could be your year.
Best wishes for 2019 - and don't forget how much you do for your fellow Pandas. xx
It's just another day like every other day in which I spend it alone and unwanted.
I will probably post something later about this weird year. Lot of ruminations about it. But it seems every year we wish for a better next year. It's like thinking the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. It's just the same grass.
Same day every day. Things don't get better or worse. They're always good and bad. Perspective.
I am going to bed at 8:30pm and I am going to happily accept it and enjoy it! I can do this, but unlike you I can't run a marathon (or ultra!). We all have strengths and weaknesses to work on. Keep going Jeff!
Hope you end up enjoying your night, Jeff. I doubt I'll be up for the new year & only regret it a super tiny bit.