I think I need a new doctor. Weight was down last year because I was training for my October marathon. This year, my big race is over. I'm healthy, but he made it sound like I'm out of shape. Plus, doctor is way too far a drive...
That sounds nice... :)
Good for you:)
Sounds good :)
Sounds like a wonderful evening! Glad you had a relaxing time.
Ahh makes me want to have an evening alone. I think I'll pretend I am for tonight!
Sounds nice. How's your dog doing? Big hugs!
You ran this morning at all, despite stomach issues. That's pretty good!
Thank you, pandas!
You did run! That's a good thing
Really feeling that I ate too much and drank too much this weekend...again. And I didn't get groceries, so no food for lunch. Blah...stressing over time and getting things done...feeling very anxious this morning in general.
Maybe it's from the booze? I get anxious after alcohol as well. Proud of you for doing your 13mile trail!!
Well done on your trail run! That's awesome! I would be bothered by the comment too even though it so silly to let something like get to you. He's not worth getting upset over. Hope your day turned out better than expected!
The body was weak this morning, but I forgave it and went easy on it, and it got me through the run. Was really hot out there!
Well done on getting out there after some major indulgent! That is dedication! I finally did yoga today for the first time since Monday. It felt great!
It's not the dog's fault he's anxious around other dogs, but we didn't get our walk this morning because he kept pulling and tripping me with neighbor out with their dogs. I feel bad about lack of patience...
I used to have this mantra I'd say: When do I get to be happy? I once wrote it probably thousands of times in a notebook during a big depressive period. That was a decade or two ago. I'm still asking myself that...
I don't understand why other people get to be happy and have caring relationships with friends and loved ones and I don't. What is it about me? I can't even believe anymore that it will change or that I have to be patient...
It won't change... I've lived long enough to know that. Most of the time, I'm not unhappy per se. I've gotten pretty good at coping. But why not me? Am I selfish for just wanting to care about someone and have someone care about me?
I'm not even saying 'love'... I just want someone to want me around and want to listen to what I say and want me to listen to them. Someone who cares about me and who I care about. A good friendship even... Just some way to not...
...be alone all the time. We're meant to be social people. Why not me? Blah blah same old. I've been saying this and asking this for 30 years now. Pathetic.
Try getting a kitten. It'll be soft and little enough for your dog to accept, but it will also look after itself and be no trouble.
Yes, this endless cirlce of thoughts and questions is quite exhausting...
It's not pathetic, dear Jeffbear. Wish I could hang out with you
I don't think it's pathetic either, Jeff. You want what everyone wants & I'm clueless about why it hasn't found you yet because you're amazing! I still think it's coming though. You are too great of a person. Don't feel defeated. We love you! 💚
I don't know what to say, Manda is right, life is strange. This is sad. Sending you hugs and <'
...never get to be happy?
Some people are like that. Not us, it seems.
Yes! Everytime that I didn't get up, I run in afternoon too. Good Job!
Way to make up for not running, Jeff!
Sorry, Jeff. Hope works gets better for you. Lots of hugs.
I got told to remember that hills work different muscles so 'you aren't that tired afterall!' ...not sure myself... I miss running, but got to rest this hip - seems to be getting worse :/
I like hills. My big race last month was tons of hills...But my legs are surprisingly sore after just 2 miles on the treadmill walking fast uphill. Weird. Still recovering, I think... Sorry about your hip, John. Hope you're stretching/rolling it!
Don't want to just train for races. Want to be healthier and stronger. Trying to reframe my focus...keep training so I can run well and run better and stronger, but also feel better the rest of the time too.
Been thinking a lot about strength and how hard it is to maintain improvement and focus on bettering myself for the long run. Too easy to resort to quick fixes, like food or beer, to improve mood.
Want to drink less beer...but I don't need to cut it out of my life. I enjoy it. Don't have to cut out good food either. Just less of it. Be healthy the rest of the time.
Thinking a lot about getting a tattoo. Have a friend who may be able to help me with a place soon.
I am OVER alcohol! I'll get my tall Mexican draft beer at the Mexican restaurant & drink to celebrations, but that's it. I'd rather eat Nutella. 😋
You obviously train for a healthier body every time you run, not just for races. Give yourself some credit! You kick a**!
I like alcohol! I don't even mind self-medicating with alcohol. I just hate grown people acting like college kids and getting sloppy, stupid drunk. No patience for that!
Jeff, that's a very healthy way of looking at things. Not cutting things out, but just being healthier in general. Glad for you. Xx
Well done Jeffbear! Hope you manage to enjoy the party and feel better soon xx
Congratulations, Jeff!! That's awesome!! Hope you manage to enjoy yourself tonight. CELEBRATE! 🎉
Wasps are bad enough, but bees kamikazing can *** right off!
Stomach off...been eating too much that isn't good for me. Really need to detox or something...blah.
I did 4 blocks and thought of you. Going to cycle to work. Hope you have a great day and that mtg goes well.
At least you're not injured, Jeff! Detox can still be tasty, don't think you have to eat foods that taste bad
How did it go?
Really feeling sluggish from all the food and beer I had this weekend. Hard getting up this morning and back to work. Ugh...
Is that the AT sis?
Yep, @Love. Was nice to run with her. My sister and I are not close, unfortunately, but it's nice to see them for short periods of time and hear about their lives...
Woo 7! So great to hear you're having fun and feeling good! xx
Definitely has me thinking I need to keep my running up. Preserve that base that I worked so hard to get to. Maybe more crazy races next year!
Yes, these bodies are built tough. They can endure more than we think they can. Indeed, we can do more than the limitations we allow our fears to impose upon our possibilities.
What is the race for?
@Mary it was called VolState 500k, just a crazy ultra run by the guy who puts on the famous Barkley Marathons. I doubt I'd ever be able to do this, but I could probably do other big ultras!
Cool. Sounds like fun.
Good luck for your future rans!