Not fun & now I hate myself. Her temp is over 102 so I had to go out & buy some Motrin for her to take. Ugh. I ALWAYS f*ck up.
I'm so sorry Manda! You are NOT a terrible mother! It was an accident! It will be okay ❤ big hugs to you!
Thanks so much, Shelley & BB. We got some Motrin in her & now she's tucked into bed. Thank goodness my sister is a nurse. She helped me remain calm as she told me what to do. I even sent her a pic of puke floating in the toilet. What a night.
Oh I'm so glad to hear that! 😊 I hope you and your daughter can get some rest tonight ❤
That's my Mandy panda...remaining calm. Glad everything worked out.. Rest well ❤
Definitely not a terrible mother! Hope you guys are getting some rest xx
It was an accident you didn't do it on purpose. Take care dear Manda. X
Aw! Thank you so much, Pandas. I don't know what I'd do without you guys. BF acted super pissed like, duh, how could this happen? I was so thankful once she woke up the next morning. Thanks again, my lovely Panda friends! 💖
My mom's once made a mistake and poured some acid (don't remember what kind, it was a weak solution but still) into my eye. She had mistaken it for eye drops. She was very sleepy at the time. My eye is OK and I was only upset for 5 minutes.
*** happens! It's OK now, that's all that matters.
I know I'm late with my story. Been super busy these days.
Whew! What a story, Alicia. Glad you are ok. I'm glad I'm not the only parent in the world that ***ed up while trying to help.
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💖
Tupperware is good for many things.
I'm going to talk to my therapist about doing the same thing. Great advice 😃
Tupperware! That's genius. No escaping guaranteed. Still not big enough though. I'm going for one of those trunks you find in older people's attics. Not sure if there is a better name.
Shelley- I'm glad you are going to use it. I was flooded with all the worries that just get caught in the hamster wheel yesterday that I want to talk about. I wrote some down & emailed myself some lists but still went to bed with a non-stop flow.
Sounds like a good idea. Wish I could get me a therapist soon.
I hope you get one soon, Alicia. xx
really good idea, thank you for sharing, Manda! X
...to figure out a way to get me to NOT feel worthless & not good enough. We chit chat & it always manages to come back to that. I don't know if I'll ever be able to feel good about myself.
I'm sorry you struggle with that, Manda. I hope she's able to help you over time! And I'm sorry for your sister - a difficult decision to be sure, but she has to do what's right for her.
Its a horrible situation, hopefully you can support each other.
It's tough when the person you rely on for support is going through a lot themselves. You want to support them but sometimes they won't let you because they feel like you have enough on . . .which increases your guilt because you feel it has become
all about you. And sometimes if they press on and on about the same things that THEY feel you need to change, it can get a bit tiring. Especially if they are repeating the things you tell yourself everyday and beat yourself up over! Sometimes, you
Sometimes it's the way something is said or put that makes it easier to take on board rather than the general message or advice. . . Anyways, I'm trying to say that I can relate to how you're feeling. Maybe for now it's OK to feel like you'll never
feel good about yourself. Maybe for now it's just about not feeling absolutely *horrible* about yourself . . .even just sometimes during the day. And acknowledging those moments .. . I think Jeff put it very well. It's sad that your sister feels that
way in her relationship. But at least she has worked out what she wants. It won't be easy but maybe for her it's the right decision.
Thanks, Pandas. I'm nervous about my Sis going through with this by herself. When I went through it I became crazy ***al. Really don't want that for her. KTA- I think you're right that I can still see a day that's not completely awful.
You are wonderful and exceptional to me, Manda :) Just so you know.
Aw, thanks, Alicia. Much love! 💞
...to come home. BF gave really good advice that I passed on. She's gotta separate the baby from him. She's 34 & I think everyone was thinking this kind of thing wouldn't ever happen. She's want to be a mother so badly though.
Support her whatever her choice. There's still plenty of time. Women are having kids older and older these days.
That's true, John, but my sister tears through relationships like it's no thang. Ever since her divorce (10-11 years ago) she's never come close to being with someone long enough to have a baby. She has a *ahem* health condition where it's hard to...
...advance a relationship with or find someone with the same problem if you get what I mean. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Ooo green sounds cool! Sounds like lots of positive stuff. I so want to see Captain Marvel but don't like going to the movies by myself (unless it's a super slow time like mid-afternoon, which I can't really do).
I'm so happy you've got something you really like - and you're always pretty:)
I agree with Albertine. Your hair looks amazing!!!
Aw! Thanks, guys! You are so sweet. I'm glad the situation was fixed. I only tipped her $10 for it but both mine & BF's mom's said that's what I should do. I felt like I should've given her more but am supposed to remember it was her fault we had...
...to redo it. Hope the color lasts as long as last ti
I think it looks awesome!
Is tipping an American thing? I don't think I've ever tipped anyone, except for saying 'keep the change' at the takeaway, or 'put the change in the charity tin', but that's more because I don't like having pockets full of low denomination coins.
Tipping is an American thing. Sometimes it's expected (like at restaurants/bars), and sometimes/not always just for really good service (like at hotels, hair places, etc.). It's confusing even to us!
Thanks, Jeff! I know so little about tipping that I had to ask BF's mom what to do. I would also be clueless if it was up to me to tip at a restaurant.
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
I think it's British too. I tip at restaurants and I always give my hairdresser £10.
Manda. Happy to see your score is the same colour as your Hair. Xx
Really Nix?? Maybe I'm just really mean! 😁😁😂😁😂😁😂😁😂😁😂😁😂😁😁
Also Manda you are looking really well. 👍
Thanks, nixi & John! I should keep a baseline score of 6. It's like having green eyes so you can't get pinched on St. Patrick's Day.
...to be a real aunt from the beginning. I may not live close to them but I will always be there. It's my Sister! 💕💕💕💕
Congratulations 💖 😇
Thank you for being so sweet, Pandas! 💖
Thanks, Lydia! xx❤️xx I am still floating on air since she told me. I've texted to see how she is feeling this morning. I hope she is sleeping!
Amazing! I've got 2 nephews from my sister, I love them to bits. It's wonderful to have some and I am so happy for you!
Thanks, Alicia! xx
Thanks, nixi! 💙 I'm still floating around in happiness. Trying to wait until she's off work to check in her.
Hope she only sais nice things and you had fun!
She didn't say anything mean or nice which I guess is a win. It was a great time & the food was yummy! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Sleep is great! You don't eat, you rest, you see dreams, I love sleeping. Well done! Hope it's a new tendency for you :)
Thanks, Alicia. I put together that it was because I took some Melatonin. I took some last night & still woke up though. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
...to spending more on my hair & maybe she would've tried harder to get it to turn out right. Who knows. So hungry. Indian for dinnner!
Oooohhhh Indian food - fantastic!
It was delicious, Albertine! 😋 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Hope you hear from your mother soon
Thanks, Albertine. She posted activity on Instagram last night & I texted with her today. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💖
...attack. He asked about benzos i've taken in the past.
If I have a panic attack before I see him in a month, I will bring it up again.
Wow, you're a fast reader!!! Nice to see you feeling goodish.
I don't normally read that fast, Alicia. It was just a really good book. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
What are you reading?
It was called Dark Matter by Blake Crouch, I think? Super duper good! Now I'm reading the Eleanor Oliphant book.
You're being productive, that's good! As for binging it seems inevitable when one undereats for a while… It's all very complicated, I know. I hope you feel good tomorrow.
Thanks, Alicia. I wish I remembered how easy it is to binge after a period of restriction. I might as well try to only eat a meal ti
...times & not more than one thing for lunch. There is no need. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
How is the hair?
Same. 😢 The stylist is supposed to be looking into it. If I don't hear from her by Monday, I'm going to text her again. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
I'm so upset & BF is too because he knows I've been looking forward to this for a looong time & doesn't want me to feel disappointed. Ugh.
Oh no, I'm so sorry. 😔 I really hope she can fix it!
https://youtu.be/QDOAdDBkc9s I hope you can sort your hair out. Use elvene, like on the video. (Seriously though, you can get your hair fixed! Don't worry!)
I think your hair looks good!
Thanks, Pandas. 💚 The lady that took my blood liked it. I guess it's not as awful as I think it is. We might change the end color to more of a teal. The pink didn't even come out as pink but I can live with that. Still so disappointing.
Your hair looks cool on the picture in insta. Can't see all the detail, but still.
Trust me, guys, it sucks. I still had people comment it though. BF knows it can look so much better too. My older MP friends can probably remember when I dyed it the first time. It was ***ing fabulous!
...him out on it. I apologized to daughter as I walked out & she told me I didn't need to apologize. BF texted me before I even got out of the driveway telling me to go back & get them. I was going to hit him. I had to get away.
Aw Manda. Hope you're OK. Glad you have someone to reach out to! Rooting for you!
Thanks so much, Jeff. I just now came home & only because I was hungry & BF, weirdly, said not to eat without them. I feel a lot better but I don't want to even be in the same room as BF. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Thinking of you xx
Thank you, A. xx
Sorry you had to experience all that… sounds terrible. But you didn't hit him, so that's good. You were strong.
Thinking of you, I really hope your ok! Sounds so stressful, it's good you walked away to get yourself out the situation even just for a while. It will do him good to miss you. Here if you want to talk anytime xx
Thanks, Alicia & Natalie. I didn't even think to celebrate the small victory of not hitting him. I would've if I didn't have locked the door. Thanks for the hug, John. 💚
Sorry, Manda... It's ok to have bad days
Doesn't mean you're not improving!
Thanks, Jeff. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. xx