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1 Manda P
1d ·
I made BF cry. A lot. I'm the worst human on the planet. He shouldn't have to put up with me. I tried to tell him I need to go so I'd stop hurting them, but he said no. He's stuck w/me. I hate this.
Amanda J
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Maite P
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Brendan N
1d ·

If he said no to you going away then he believes in you - that can only be a good thing.

Tasha S
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Alicia B
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Alicia B
23h ·

You've messed up, but you bring him more joy than pain, I'm sure. Sometimes you hurt him, sometimes he hurts you, too, doesn't he? It's inevitable. But you make each other happy, too. And no-one is happy 100 per cent of the time, right?

sonny S
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Natalie C
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Manda P
16h ·

Thank you Brendan & Alicia. You guys have made me feel better. Plus, my Mom reminded me that it's not like he never hurts me. He belittles my struggles with my disorders & that really hurts. The pain I cause is a direct result of my disorder though.

Manda P
16h ·

Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. πŸ’–

Alicia B
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1 Manda P
1d ·
I can't take this anymore. So much crying. I am so sad. I f*ck everything up. I actually want to go away at this point. I want this all over. I'm really not well at all.
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Bipolar Bear .
1d ·

Oh Manda :( big hugs to you! Is there anyone you can reach out to? I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I'm sure you don't *** everything up! Hang in there, us pandas are here for ya lady ❀

Pete F
1d ·

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Manda P
1d ·

Thanks, BB. No one to reach out to but family & global friends so I'm pretty alone. BF just left the room near tears saying I don't care about him. Now I really don't see the point of me being here. Thanks for the hug, Pete.

Jimbob W
1d ·

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Jimbob W
1d ·

Oh mate. Hang on in there. Sounds like it's a tough time. Do whatever you need to do to get through this, stay safe. We are here for you xxx

Brendan N
1d ·

Keep talking, communication is key. Glad to see that you can get it out there, do not be afraid to ask for support. Just look at the love already shown by all these good and like minded people. Always here....mind yerself 😁

Esther B
1d ·

Hang in there! This must be very hard for you but you will come true this. this too shall pass. Lots of hugs

Cindy M
1d ·

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Cindy M
1d ·

Dear Manda, please hang in there - things won't always be so hard, and there's so much love for you. You're in my thoughts xx

Manda P
1d ·

Thank you, Pandas. I don't know what I'd do without you. πŸ’–

Tasha S
1d ·

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Tasha S
1d ·

Please don't go away :( we all care about you very much x

Alicia B
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Alicia B
23h ·

Like John says, no feeling is forever. It helps me to think about that. Plus, your daughter and your BF need you, don't forget what it would mean to them if you were gone… Spit their lives in half. I hope I don't sound mean, I don't mean to be.

sonny S
21h ·

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Manda P
16h ·

Thank you, Tasha, Alicia, & sonny. When I saw how much pain I cause him, I immediately wanted to distance myself so it would stop, but know that can't be the answer.

Alicia B
13h ·

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Bipolar Bear .
7h ·

There will always be some level of pain in relationships, we hurt each other when we dont mean to, it is unavoidable sometimes. BUT it can be strengthening to you both as painful as it may be. You are loved my friend

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3 Manda P
2d ·
Cried a lot today.Found out about the new pretty 25 yr old art teacher. I may look good at 37, but I can't compete with a 25 year old. I hate this. I hate myself. Already crying again while vapeing.
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Cindy M
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Tasha S
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Alicia B
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Alicia B
22h ·

Where does she work?

sonny S
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2 Manda P
6d ·
Not well. Punched BF in the arm this morning (in the garage & daughter was sleeping upstairs with a friend). Actually hurt him for the first time bcuz I'm strong now. πŸ˜” Will never do that again.
Manda P
6d ·

Afraid new med is making things worse. Love new therapist. She told me a new psychiatrist is coming to the center in October & he may want to do transcranial magnetic stimulation on me. Supposed to be non-invasive. Therapist said no ECT bcuz of...

Manda P
6d ·

...the memory loss. Guys, I'm falling apart. 😒

Patricia S
6d ·

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Patricia S
6d ·

If it feels wrong, don't do it. Make sure you get onto the right meds. Stay strong.

Natalie C
6d ·

☹ sounds a tough one, maybe speak through concerns with therapist first about your new meds x

Natalie C
6d ·

Try as best you can not to worry about the new Psychiatrist, all treatments must have your consent/ permission! I know you can get through this your a tough cookie πŸ™‚πŸͺx

nixiblu .
6d ·

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DesBear D
5d ·

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DesBear D
5d ·

❀️❀️❀️

Tasha S
5d ·

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John T
5d ·

ECT ruined my granny, she went from being a bubbly, excitable personality, to a lifeless, one mood zombie. Poor thing, I wish had known her when she was younger.

John T
5d ·

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Jeff M
5d ·

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DesBear D
5d ·

Thinking of you lots Manda Bear. You'll get through this, you are a strong one. I know this for fact ❀️

Silke V
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Manda P
2d ·

Thank you, Pandas. πŸ’–

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5 Manda P
08 Aug 2018 ·
I don't know what's going on, but I didn't cry when BF & daughter left for school. I thought I was gonna break down bawling as I waved goodbye, but nope. I hope this continues throughout the day!
Jeff M
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
08 Aug 2018 ·

I hope so too, Manda! Gotta keep perspective, I guess. It's just another day, and you've gotten through a lot of days, and you can get through this one!

Cindy M
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
08 Aug 2018 ·

And they'll be back, and they love you, and pandas love you, too. Big hugs, my dear friend.

John T
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Lydia R
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Silke V
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Esther B
09 Aug 2018 ·

Yay Amanda! 🀩

Manda P
6d ·

Thank you, Pandas. I handled the whole day like it was any other normal school day. Already used to it & glad to have a little time to myself. The only time I really got it this summer was when I was up in the middle of the night & I hated that.

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2 Manda P
07 Aug 2018 ·
Well, my psychiatrist just told me we were running out of options & that I might need to think about ECT, inpatient, or 2nd opinion which will be back to the lady I worked with for the first 6...
Manda P
07 Aug 2018 ·

...months of this. He actually went back through my entire 11.5 year file & found one that worked years ago & I had only stopped because of weight gain. 1st dose at bed.

nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

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nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

2nd opinion being the 1st person you saw. ???

nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

In my book that's no second opinion.

nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

I'm so sorry Manda that you are not getting the help that you need, nor deserve. However, that they have found something in your past that has worked may be a positive step, indicating this therapist is the one

nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

Wrt weight gain. I think mental happiness is more important (imo) and can you find exercise you enjoy

nixiblu .
07 Aug 2018 ·

I think my messages are in reverse order????

Jeff M
07 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
07 Aug 2018 ·

That has to be really frustrating...I know you have been trying so hard. Maybe an actual second opinion will help...a different point of view with different ideas. I'm sorry, Manda...sending you lots of hugs and strength to keep trying!

Manda P
08 Aug 2018 ·

Thank you, nixi & Jeff. πŸ’– Nixi, I'm being moved back to her anyway. I go to a mental health center & have government insurance so my options are limited. We just got home from Urgent Care due to BF's wasp sting & tomorrow is the 1st day of school!

sad bea r
08 Aug 2018 ·

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sad bea r
08 Aug 2018 ·

man that must me very irritating :(

Tasha S
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
08 Aug 2018 ·

Sad- It's really frustrating. This is now a 10 month long episode. I'm tired of it. I feel like I won't ever be stable again. Thanks for the hugs, Tasha & Lydia. πŸ’–

Alicia B
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
08 Aug 2018 ·

I'm not sure I know what a mixed episode is, I should read about it. It sounds so exhausting :( But I'm sure there is something to help you out there, just keep trying, and don't give up, we all want you here with us. <3

Esther B
09 Aug 2018 ·

I'm sorry you're going through this. Wish I could help.

Manda P
6d ·

Thanks, my Panda friends. Alicia- It's a nice big mess of mania & depression happening at the same time. It's awful!

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3 Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·
4AM. Somehow really screwed up even though I did nothing wrong. BF goes into work this morning. School starts Wed. Trying so hard to remain strong. This is difficult when I'm stable. Not sure...
Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·

...how it'll go in a 10 month long Bipolar 1, mixed episode with rapid cycling. My guess? Not good. Mom said she'd help me & I can text Sis. BF said I could text him but originally said, 'You know, we are going to have a really hard time too.' Of...

Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·

...course I know that! I got very upset. I'm sure it's tough because of the whole summer break thing, but they are just returning to work & school. I'm experiencing severe Depression while also being manic out of my mind.

Cindy M
06 Aug 2018 ·

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Cindy M
06 Aug 2018 ·

Lots of love and strength to you dear Manda xx

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06 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
06 Aug 2018 ·

It's good to know that you're facing a difficult time. Logic can tell you that you'll get through it, I guess. I hope you're able to get support from your mom and sis, and know you will push through and come out the other side. Lots of strength!

Bipolar Bear .
06 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
06 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
06 Aug 2018 ·

I've noticed that sometimes when dealing with my Borderline friend I say these egocentric things, too. Like, 'You're not the only one who's suffering here, and not the only one who's suffering from your episodes! AND I have a diagnosis of my own'.

Alicia B
06 Aug 2018 ·

It's not that I want him to shut up and go away, I just want to be heard and seen and paid attention to. But I know it's the wrong way to put it. Maybe your BF will also try to express these feelings better.

John T
06 Aug 2018 ·

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07 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
07 Aug 2018 ·

I've lost how to talk to him, Alicia. I'm so, so lost. 😒

sad bea r
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Lydia R
08 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
09 Aug 2018 ·

:( I hope it's only temporary, big hugs

Manda P
6d ·

Thank you, Pandas. πŸ’–

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3 Manda P
05 Aug 2018 ·
So f*cking irritable. Close to taking the med he gave me for car trip if this feeling started. He said I could. Lots of sadness, crying yesterday. Calling tomorrow. The new med is making things worse.
Cindy M
05 Aug 2018 ·

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Cindy M
05 Aug 2018 ·

Glad you can call tomorrow - look after yourself xx

sonny S
05 Aug 2018 ·

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05 Aug 2018 ·

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nixiblu .
06 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
06 Aug 2018 ·

Thanks, Cindy! Less than 12 hours till I can call. Tonight has been a horrible mess. 😒

Jeff M
06 Aug 2018 ·

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3 Manda P
03 Aug 2018 ·
3:30AM. Have got 1 hour of sleep tonight. Supposed to be in our bed with daughter for a sleepover. I've tried all the tricks except nighttime cold medicine. Might end up doing it. I hate this. 😒
Jeff M
03 Aug 2018 ·

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Jeff M
03 Aug 2018 ·

Hope the night went ok after that, Manda...panic attacks are the worst. :( *Big hugs*

Manda P
03 Aug 2018 ·

Also, had a panic attack last night while daughter had 2 friends spending the night. Thank goodness I was in our bedroom. Really hoping it's not the new med causing this!

Manda P
03 Aug 2018 ·

Thank you, Pandas. I ended up taking the cold medicine & got 3.5 more hours of sleep. Feel ok now that I've 'relaxed'. Have been incredibly irritable lately too though. Going to movies, dinner, & a couple quick stops this afternoon. Can't stress.

Manda P
03 Aug 2018 ·

Going to call 8AM on Monday if this continues! And, Jeff, panic attacks are the worst. My chest hurt SO much. Stupid thing lasted over 15 minutes. πŸ˜”

Manda P
04 Aug 2018 ·

Thank you, Pandas. I managed some amount of sleep. Not exactly sure how much. I still feel super tired but it's just depression.

Cindy M
03 Aug 2018 ·

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04 Aug 2018 ·

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03 Aug 2018 ·

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Alicia B
03 Aug 2018 ·

Hate the no sleep phases. Hope it's not the meds, too. 😚

Lydia R
03 Aug 2018 ·

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Keeping Track A
03 Aug 2018 ·

Poor Manda. Hope you manage to get a better night's sleep tonight! xxx

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4 Manda P
01 Aug 2018 ·
Been up since 3AM. Took the new med which should've knocked me out did not do so. I was tired before I took it so can't say it helped that. Mania! Daughter having friend over. Cried lots this morning.
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01 Aug 2018 ·

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Natalie C
01 Aug 2018 ·

Big hugs Amanda πŸ’š xx

Manda P
01 Aug 2018 ·

Thank you, Natalie xx And thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’œ

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01 Aug 2018 ·

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7 Manda P
31 Jul 2018 ·
Feeling hopeful. Saw psychiatrist today. Stopping antidepressant & starting new antipsychotic. He wanted to wean my current one as I start new one but not taking risks. Had to inform him I...
Manda P
31 Jul 2018 ·

...experience MIXED EPISODES. C'mon, dude! How was that not clear?! Great professionals I'm in the hands of, huh? He was quick with an option once he realized that though. 🀞

Jeff M
31 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
31 Jul 2018 ·

Sometimes you have to push to get them to listen and understand. Good for you for advocating for yourself and making sure you get the right option! Hope it helps, Manda!

Jimbob W
01 Aug 2018 ·

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Manda P
01 Aug 2018 ·

Thanks, Jeff. I went in with a paper list like I do therapy & it seemed to make a big difference. I know my disorders & symptoms well. There are tons of different types of Bipolar Disorder, but the person having me take brain chemical altering...

Manda P
01 Aug 2018 ·

...substances should understand what the hell they are doing! So glad that is cleared up. I will only see him a couple more times before I switch back to the lady that ditched me. πŸ˜”

Manda P
01 Aug 2018 ·

Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. πŸ’šπŸ’œ

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01 Aug 2018 ·

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3 Manda P
28 Jul 2018 ·
Woke up 2 hours later than usual. Upset. Skipped bfast. Couldn't do yoga. Finally did after lunch. In bed reading. Out to dinner with (ex)stepdad tonight. Going almost 2 hours from our house to there!
John T
28 Jul 2018 ·

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28 Jul 2018 ·

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28 Jul 2018 ·

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28 Jul 2018 ·

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29 Jul 2018 ·

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Love 1
29 Jul 2018 ·

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Love 1
29 Jul 2018 ·

Hope the connection cancels out the long drive.

Esther B
29 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
31 Jul 2018 ·

Thank you, Love. We had a really nice time. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

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4 Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·
Said goodbye to psychologist yesterday. Was HARD. He hugged me. I cried a lot in there & f*cking lost it as soon as I stepped out the door. Had to pick up meds. They screwed up so I had to...
Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·

...wait 30 min. Cried right there at the register. Horrible mess. Had BF take me on date. Ordered beer that was $8 instead of $4. Cried in restaurant. Got drunk & other things. Woke up naked to an empty house. Forgot BF had to work & daughter is...

Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·

...with MIL. Cried twice before I even had breakfast. 120 lbs. I think I might die.

nixiblu .
26 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·

Also, even 70 year old & 40-something new therapist both laughed & told me BF just doesn't have the libido he used to. He said we had a miscommunication those 2 nights. Gotta communicate!

Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·

BF said it was s miscommunication, I mean.

Maite P
26 Jul 2018 ·

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Robert H
26 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
26 Jul 2018 ·

Thank you for the hugs! πŸ’š

Love 1
27 Jul 2018 ·

Bumps in the road, but you keep on keepin on. Commendable.

DesBear D
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
27 Jul 2018 ·

What Love said. Why do you say you might die? Don't die, lil Manda.

Jeff M
27 Jul 2018 ·

Aw, Manda, some days will be hard. You got through it. You know I never resented the self-medication route with alcohol to get through those hard days. I hope today is better for you!

Jeff M
27 Jul 2018 ·

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Manda P
27 Jul 2018 ·

Thank you, sweet Pandas! I'm feeling better. Have had to force myself to do yoga though which disappointed me.

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2 Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·
Drinking. Just want to numb the feelings. Told Mom about sex problem. She thinks it's silly he begged for it to be every night & now he can't bothered. It's helped me release so much built up...
Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

...energy & helps me sleep well. I just don't get it. Oh well. Let the walls begin.

Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

There are other outlets Manda, like exercise and such. Plus other things...

Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

Thanks, Jeff. I know I'm going about today all the wrong way. I even ate something between meals & we never do that. I just feel so sad. As you guys know, there were major issues in that area pretty much ever since I started meds so when this...

Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

...hyper sexuality symptom kicked in, we both were obviously beyond thrilled. I felt like a kid waiting until it was safe to do it & not being able to keep our hands off each other until then. We were supposed to take advantage of the days before...

Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

...my period but I guess he changed his mind. I'm back to feeling like I don't even belong here.

Natalie C
23 Jul 2018 ·

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23 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

More hugs...I hope you can combat those feelings, because you know it's just your brain messing with you. Talk to him and be open with each other...I hope you figure out how best to deal with those feelings!

Cindy M
23 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
24 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
24 Jul 2018 ·

Ugh it must be so frustrating. And rejection is never easy to take. We're all vulnerable to it. Even if it's percieved.

Margot L
25 Jul 2018 ·

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2 Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·
Meant to post about 4AM but couldn't be bothered. BF said he & daughter were going to hang out till midnight so I woke at 11:30 to wait for her to go to bed. He ended up letting her stay up till 2AM.
Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

I learned my lesson: Keep distance!

Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

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23 Jul 2018 ·

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23 Jul 2018 ·

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2 Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·
Tearful. BF & daughter off to church again. Still not used to it. Took 'medicine' when I woke up as usual & because I knew I'd need it before they left. BF tells me to do it to avoid bad...
Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

...situations before they even start. 1st time, he'd bring me back a coffee. 2nd time, nothing so I took medicine. I figure they get to go experience this totally new life changer together & without me while they do whatever it is you do at...

Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

...church. Least I can do is 'relax' one more time & enjoy some me time while they're gone. Tummy upset. It was RUINED on our trip. But, yeah, then I'm guaranteed not to slip up & can be normal when they get home from church.

Cindy M
22 Jul 2018 ·

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Cindy M
22 Jul 2018 ·

It must be so hard, Manda - I don't really believe anything, and I can't imagine how I would act if the people I'm closest to started exploring religion. Think it's great that you're trying to give them space and time to do so xx

Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

Aw, Cindy. Thought brought those tears out. No one has looked it as I feel. Can't remember if I said, but I always classified as an Agnostic until BF provided his proof of no god. 😒 Thank you, my Dear. xx I'm listening on my really nice computer...

Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

...speakers I had BF buy so I can pay him back because they were on sale. Sounds awesome SUPER loud!

nixiblu .
22 Jul 2018 ·

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22 Jul 2018 ·

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22 Jul 2018 ·

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23 Jul 2018 ·

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23 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

I bet it's difficult to see them going through this together and feeling you're not a part of it. Especially something that people experience so viscerally as faith. It's not like they have a new hobby or pastime... But like you said, it gives you...

Jeff M
23 Jul 2018 ·

...some time by yourself. And you can be happy for them. At least they're not making you feel less or something. They're allowing you your own beliefs and opinions, and that's good! Hope your day got better...

Manda P
23 Jul 2018 ·

You're right, Jeff. It is a good thing. I still cried while they were away but surely it's just the depression. Can't even remember how my day turned out. Thanks though!

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5 Manda P
21 Jul 2018 ·
Rainy day. Went out for Indian teas. Woke BF up this morning, but no go. He said it's like I'm flooring it w/a stiff leg. πŸ˜‚ He watched me do yoga. Lots of planking. Said he can see I'm getting fit!😍
Maite P
21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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Love 1
22 Jul 2018 ·

Awesome.Building core strength & flexibility

Alicia B
22 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
22 Jul 2018 ·

Planks are hard, you rock!

Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

Yes, Love & Alicia! I feeling amazing & have only just barely got started. I have made a lot of progress since I started though! πŸ’ͺ

Manda P
22 Jul 2018 ·

Oh, he doesn't dislike the flexibility either! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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22 Jul 2018 ·

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7 Manda P
21 Jul 2018 ·
Went out for dinner w/older bro & fam. Wasn't nervous at all & had totally forgotten about email asking about religion. Sis-in-law talked about getting a beach house down there for us all to hang...
Manda P
21 Jul 2018 ·

...out in next year. Becoming closer with family. Talking to Sis often. She said a lot of things that made me feel better because she's the ONLY person that TRULY understands since she shares the same genes & lived it with me.

Natalie C
21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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21 Jul 2018 ·

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3 Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·
Ugh. Don't know what's going on. Amazing hyper sexual times still (I feel like electricity & BF could set me off if he were across the world), but bad vibes this morning. Was supposed to wake...
Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·

...BF up, but daughter was already downstairs when I went to the bathroom. It's not like I didn't want to because, trust me, I could just be a never ending wave of 'happiness' due to mania. C'mon, who would turn that down?!

Jeff M
20 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
20 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
20 Jul 2018 ·

Sounds nice 😍 wish I was like that again, too. But it's too much for most people. Your BF is great 😁

Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·

Yep, I think I had forgotten exactly how nice it was. I told BF I need to rewind him 13 years to keep up! πŸ˜‚

Love 1
20 Jul 2018 ·

hehe. Enjoy.

Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·

😜

DesBear D
21 Jul 2018 ·

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Cindy M
21 Jul 2018 ·

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7 Manda P
19 Jul 2018 ·
So far so good. (Well, give me a little credit.) Making sure I do at least 20 min of yoga every morning. It's helping. Coming off caffeine. Gonna have to do a bit of weaning. There goes though GFuels!
Tasha S
19 Jul 2018 ·

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V R
19 Jul 2018 ·

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Cindy M
19 Jul 2018 ·

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Natalie C
20 Jul 2018 ·

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Natalie C
20 Jul 2018 ·

Well done :) Go Manda! x

Jeff M
20 Jul 2018 ·

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Jeff M
20 Jul 2018 ·

Man, I think cutting out coffee may make me useless for a few weeks. I have been so sleepy lately, it's all I have to get through the day. Good for you, strong Mandabear!

Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·

Thank you, Natalie & Jeff. I don't know what's gotten into me, but it's like I actually care about myself! 😳 Thank you for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š

Alicia B
20 Jul 2018 ·

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Alicia B
20 Jul 2018 ·

I love whatever's gotten into you 😁

Manda P
20 Jul 2018 ·

Aw, thanks, Alicia! It is definitely a welcome change!

DesBear D
21 Jul 2018 ·

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