Be safe Manda😊 xx
Thanks, Natalie. I realized I was going 15mph over the speed limit & then remembered the game so I safely made it to the school. Thank you for the hugs, Pandas! Have a good weekend! 🤗
Great idea for a game, that :)
Went to therapy & went on & on about how much better I feel. She thought it was great but threw in a casual mention that it could be mania & now that I think of it, it probably is. 😢
You can still feel better with the manic episode...doesn't have to be feeling better just because of the episode. Take pride in feeling better and recognizing it! I think you're doing so great, Manda!
Aw! Thanks so much, Jeff. That is so sweet of you to say. You are totally right. I will let these feelings carry me through a good weekend. Thanks, again! *big hugs*
Aw, I agree with her. You ARE intelligent and interesting. Nice to see you feeling somewhat positive, Manda!
Aw, thanks, Jeff. I did actually tell her I thought I might be starting to feel better but didn't want to jinx it. The miracle med might actually be a miracle! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
Used to discount nice things professionals said as it was their job, but dealt with a compassionless dr & made me realise it's not their job. She was high up & well paid and utterly cold. Made me realise the good ones are actually genuine!
From what little I've seen of you, I think she was probably right <3
She is definitely right - and I agree with Katie Rose, I've had a similar experience. Everything crossed that the meds continue to help, along with everything else you do xx
Thank you so much, Katie Rose & Cindy. You guys are so sweet. I guess you're right about sincerity in the medical field. I've definitely had some bad encounters.
...of my favorite ladies there laughed at the ridiculousness of me thinking I was fat. They all said they'd love to have my figure. It's not so bad except the loss of my thigh gap & what is/ what I think/ what feels like a fat stomach. Guys, I've...
...gained FORTY POUNDS in 8 months. I keep telling myself I won't eat in the middle of the night but always do. I pretty much hate myself with a passion. I found a subreddit for Binge Eating Disorder & I'm wondering if that's part of it. I know the..
...Clozapine increases my appetite, & the Seroquel before it, & the Zyprexa before that... antipsychotics & eating disorders DO NOT mix!
Daughter's bday tomorrow. There will be a 6 girls sleepover. Can't vape while they're here so pray I can keep my irritably in check & also stay up till a somewhat normal bedtime. After they leave, we have a whole other week of Xmas Break w/nothing...
...but psych ***. Starting to look forward to them going back to school only because the tree will come down (😢) but that means I'll start parking myself in the living room on an incredibly comfortable couch & play Red Dead Redemption 2 on they PS4.
Glad you had a nice christmas and had great company with family and friends too. They are speaking the truth when they compliment you, so as hard as it is believe them. Your beautiful. ❤ Hope your daughter has a lovely birthday🎂
I know it's a difficult subject to tackle when I can't relate personally, but some quick research suggests women with this so called 'thigh gap' are at risk of osteoporosis, anemia, weakened ammune system, and fertility problems. Much sympathy,
I hope you feel more comfortable with yourself and can focus your mind on other, happier thoughts.
Aw Manda. That must be so tough
Oops hit enter. I suggest finding resources for healthy eating. So many delicious snacks that don't pack on weight. And techniques for not eating at night.
I'm happy you've gained so needed weight, though! Thigh gap is a recent phenomenon. It's not a real ideal, just a current and unhealthy fixation. You're beautiful!
Oh Manda - the world f***s with women's heads on this subject...what a minefield. I'm in one of those fat phases at the moment (thinking/worrying/knowing) and it just sucks. Hope you find the right place for you. I do know you're beautiful! xx
Thank you so much, my wonderful Panda friends. 💖 I wish so badly I could just sleep through the f*cking night & then tons of calories would instantly fall away. I think you're right, Jeff. I need to find healthy food choices. Right now I eat...
...several pieces of string cheese. I just put a new pack in the fridge (from the garage freezer) & am going to try SO HARD to not open it tonight.
Double hugs🤗, so tired I forgot I had already hugged you... hope your okay! 😁
Thanks, Natalie! I'll always be accepting of double hugs! 🤗 Hi, Kaya! 😊
...my jeans. Might have bigger sizes on top shelf of closet but don't care enough to look. I'm fat though & I hate it.
Glad you had a good Christmas. Hope tomorrow goes well.fat or curvy? :) you have g
had compliments on your looks . Genuine question - just wondering....
Hate that fat feeling. Even when it's justified (with you it is definitely not), it's still stupid, and destructive, and I hate it. If I got a message like this I'd also not believe a word. So, hugs, love ya, panda
Glad you enjoyed your Christmas!
Thanks so much, Pandas! Cindy- curvy really? 5'6”, 140lbs. Some of my fave people in his family told me I looked great, & that I had been too thin, & to keep up the figure, as in don't start to lose weight again. Even the nurse at my Mental Health...
...Center said I looked good with some meat on my bones. It's all fine & dandy until I can't wear my clothes & feel like I look like I'm pregnant because, well, when I was actually pregnant at age 26 I was over halfway through the pregnancy &...
...& was barely showing at all. I started super skinny though. Pregnancy was great for my eating disorder. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
All sounds good xx
Enjoy having the family home!
Thank you, Cindy & Jeff. xx Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
...to the pharmacy a month. Won't have to worry about driving in bad weather, parking, etc. should be nice. Hopeful it'll work out. Can't believe Christmas is a week away. Right? I get my days confused sometimes. Drives BF crazy.
Thats a good idea to get your medicine delivered, so you can stay safe and warm indoors. I hope the new meds are working without too many side effects xx
Thanks, Natalie. I think they might actually be starting to work. Getting the meds delivered now that winter has started will definitely be convenient. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Glad you caught yourself!
Quite a day!
Sounds like a nice quiet day :)
Oh, man, I am glad I caught myself too! My arm is actually sore today. I'm super duper thankful I didn't sprain my ankle because that's my default injury. 😂 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💖
Hope that passes soon - sounds awful!
Thanks, Cindy. It's feeling better today but still hurts. I haven't done anything for it yet.😊Just now feeling like I'm starting my day at 2PM. 😞 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
No clue how I put a happy face. This is not a happy moment. 😣
Good excuse to make things! Hand drawn Xmas cards?
I could put daughter to work on that, John. What a great idea! She's very artistic & I am not. I know my parents would love to get a card from her. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚 Hi, H F! Hope you are well, old friend. xx
...pj sets after I go to bed tonight. I cried. I don't know how I'll not be irritable tonight.
Wrapping is always more fun the second time! No, seriously, that's just annoying and frustrating. Hope you slept ok anyway!
Thanks, Jeff. Besides waking up twice during the night & bingeing on string cheese, I slept well. 😂 Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
...wants me to hombre my hair. BF & daughter want mint green with pink streaks. Left hair wrap in even though it's transforming into a dread. She said she could put more wraps in if I want. Watch me end up with a head full of dreads. 😂
Your daughter and BF sound like fun :)
Go for it xD
Thanks, Alicia. They most definitely are. Lots of laughing in this house. Ann- I probably will. Just going to wait a couple of months so BF doesn't freak about me spending a lot to dye my hair again. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Happy to see you in the green, Manda. Would love to see the hair! Sounds very cool!
Thanks, Jeff! The hair will be awesome as long as it's possible. BF doesn't see why there wouldn't be mint green dye. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💖
...be on the phone hunting it down with the stupid pharmacy. Hope it continues to be this easy. Actually cleaned both bathrooms today. Spic & span. They definitely needed it. Haircut on Saturday. Hair wrap coming out. 😢 Going to discuss dying it!
Nice to see green and positivity!
Glad to see a green day :)
Happy you are back!
Aw! Pandas, thank you for sharing my green day. It was a welcomed change. 💚
Why is reading in bed bad? I do it all the time, and I have trouble sleeping, too. Is that in part because of reading?
Yeah, he said to only associate the bed with sleeping. Hasn't made a difference besides making me dread going to bed because I HATE laying there alone with my thoughts.
...months old. 😳 Made homemade dessert passed down from my g-ma. Crust was too hard but tasted amazing!
Hope change in meds helps. Dessert sounds amazing - great to keep things like that going.
Thanks, Cindy. I'm the least likely to be found in a kitchen (midnight string cheese raids aside) but you're right, gotta keep it going. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
Big hugs Manda with new meds & yay for dessert!
Thanks, Natalie! 💖
You're brave Manda. I dont think I would have driven.
Thanks, nixi. I usually don't but just so happens I skipped an appointment with her two weeks ago due to ice. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚