Maybe she's anxious in her sleep as well. I hope your anxiety passes quickly, Cindy. It sounds like, at least, you have it in perspective! (Doesn't make it easier, I know...)
Love it when my cat does this, too. I just hope it's not a bad dream. Big hugs for you!
Big hugs Cindy❤ xx
would be hard for any of us not to feel a bit anxious. hope it goes well.
Hope you're feeling better soon dear Cindy. Anxiety is a shi**y feeling. Lots of love
Cindy, feeling worried about your medical status. If you feel like updating I'm sure others are thinking about you as well.
Yes, hope you're feeling better by now!
Merry Christmas to you. May our minds remain clear and souls be at peace. May our hearts be filled with love. Thats as good a gift as anything I might get.
Merry Christmas Cindy x
Merry Christmas, dear Cindy! xx
Will have some in early Jan. It was quite scary to have my sensible, down to earth GP look like she was going to cry when she told me how high the likelihood was. She's supposed to be the calm one!
Right now just need to focus on the fact that these tests do not mean I have cancer - just that it is on the table, part of what's being investigated. M knew I've not been feeling well, and that I was having tests, but went home on Wed to spend the
break with his family, so haven't said anything to him yet. What's most upsetting at moment is effect on work. They're being great and supportive, but I'm still learning the role and just finished month 5. Work is closed from today til 3rd so at
Least I needn't worry about that for a little while.
So sorry that you have such news at this time of year Cindy. I hope you can still enjoy Xmas despite what is going on for you.
I'm sorry you are going through this. It sounds like a difficult situation. Pandas are here if you need us!
Wishing strength, luck, and good health to you Cindy. Do not blame yourself if you find this Xmas extra stressful. Take care
Aw, Cindy, I'm sorry to hear that. Must be very difficult to be dealing with right now. But you're right, there's nothing you can do until you get tests and results. Try to do your best to not let the anxiety be overwhelming. Sending you strength!
Wow Cindy that must be a week full of emotions. I'm praying that your results will come out just fine. 💕
This must be very hard for you...let's hope, there's not much else to do.
Oh Cindy :( I really hope you don't :( my thoughts are with you, I hope you can still have an enjoyable Christmas despite all of this 😞
Big hugs Cindy. Sending you all of my love xx
Cindy, I'm sending you all the positive vibrations I can. Please keep us updated when you know more. You will be on my mind.
I'm so sorry you are having to go thru this. I cant even imagine the anxiety you must feel. I hope everything will be ok. Prayers and best wishes from TX to you. Stay strong
This is difficult news for all of us. I care about you, as so many pandas and others who love you do & am wanting to protect you & see you safe. You are in my thoughts & prayers. Warmest hugs.
Oh Cindy :( fingers crossed for good news. Sorry to hear you are have not been well, please take care of yourself & give yourself a nice Christmas rest xx
I hope you receive good news soon. Sending love and lots of hugs xx
Praying for you that's it's not Cindy x
So sorry Cindy . Sending Big hugs and positivity
Ah dear Pandas, thanks so much for all your hugs and comments. Feeling kinda low right now and re-reading them reminds me how many caring people there are out there.
My thoughts are with you Cindy ❤️
like to do, and I think I'd be good at it. How often do I say that?!
I hope you get a lot out of it. Sounds like it could be potentially very rewarding work.
Good luck Cindy! Your right, Im sure you will be brilliant & sounds rewarding too! X
That's great, Cindy! You'd be awesome volunteering. How rewarding!
That really is amazing, Cindy. To use your experiences and your obvious compassion and empathy to help other people (besides just helping us!) is so wonderful. You are ready, even if you aren't sure.
What are the Samaritans? Is that related to the Bible story? I'm sure you're good in that!!
They're mostly a massive charity based phone line for people who need help. They probably do other stuff but I don't know that.
Youre a superstar. Good luck
I can say my Dad did it for several years. It seemed demanding but clearly very worthwhile to him
If youre not ready, theyll probably train you, and, as in all things we do often enough, we develop over time.
work in hand to have a couple of days off.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy my friend. Special hugs are sent your way for the kindness you bestowed upon me. No one ever gave me a gift from another country before. You are a blessing.
Happy Thanksgiving Cindy
Thanks Lex, Noel, Kristin and Alice - big hugs x
You are a wonderful Panda, Shelley. Nuff said. :) xx
Lots of love and thanks for your kindness
Thank you, Cindy, for all the kindness you bring to MP. Have fun celebrating on tomorrow!
Lots to celebrate. Mant blessings for which to be grateful.
next time, Dean kind about it. Feeling quite drained but okay.
BIG HUG my friend XXX
I am so proud of your progress Cindy! You inspire me. 💖
Good for you! I still get so stressed over these big meetings/events. But feels so good when they're done! I'm sure you rocked it!
of course, overthinking. Important lesson, though: it is up to me to manage my feelings, and there are going to be days when I revert to my old habits. Just because job is going well doesn't mean 'Doubting Cindy' is gone.Still question myself, and
days it's quite persuasive, and undermining. Have to balance constructive thoughts with positives, not spiral into negativity. Right now, though, I think, good luck with that! Ugh.
Tough to compete against yourself with your thoughts...to always be fighting those doubts and self-destructive feelings. I know how that is. But just knowing it, I think, is good! I hope you manage and are doing better today!
Didn't say that, though, and he didn't offer to leave, obviously wanted to stay and talk, which made me feel worse. He left around 10.30, which was quite late for me as next day was working day and I need to be up quite early (he does know that).
Annoyed with myself for being irritated by it all, because I should have just said - I did give him some time, and we are meeting up at an event later this week.
changed since last year.
💕💕💕 happy birthday to you! :)
I wish you a very happy birthday, Cindy! All the best and love for you, as well as health, joy and lots of friendly people in your life. Hope M will be in contact soon! <3
Happy 50th Cindy. Have a great day
Happy birthday, Cindy.
Happy birthday my dear friend! Fifty and FABULOUS! (I stole that from SATC but you DO look good!)
Happy Birthday, I hope you have a wonderful day. Lots of love & big panda hugs xx 🎂 🐼
Happy Happy Birthday, Cindy!!! You have lots to celebrate for & I hope you enjoy every second of it. Enjoy your day! 💖🎉
Hope you had an amazing bday!
Thanks so much, dear Pandas - your messages and hugs are wonderfully supportive! xx
great, and necessary, but the idea that I can recognize that I have done something well says so much to me about my recovery. This is the healthiest I've been in many years.
So pleased to hear that Cindy and see such a good score. You deserve it 😃
Cindy, that is amazingly wonderful. I am so happy for you & proud of you. You've been on a long journey, but it looks like you've definitely found your way. Well done! 💖
im happy for you. Thanks for posting this. Adds something to my joy... maybe its hope.
As long as you are excited 😊 nothing is odd
Well done Cindy ! Hope your job is still going well 🙂xx
I loved days like that. hope you've enjoyed this one and for everything done
because I know he's pretty down right now and was looking forward to it. But asked him if we could meet later this week and offered him a couple of nights. Just need to remember that in a few days I'll feel okay again.
Yep, this will pass. I bet your friend understands. Everyone knows you have a big heart! 💖
Sending lots of love and hugs Cindy 💜 xx
said what a great appointment I had been and how much everyone enjoyed working with me. I was so pleased, partly that she took the time to say that, but also because I have been anxious at times and aware of how much I have to learn. I am really
fond of the team and very interested in the job, so happy to be told I'm doing well after 2 months. Definitely an 8!
Thank you JET - big hugs. x
Thanks Antonio - and (belated) welcome to MP. I had to leave my last job 2 years ago because of depression, and it's been a long road back to work. Feel very lucky to have found this job and team. I couldn't have made it this far without the Pandas
They have been with me every step of the way. Big hugs xx
That's so great! So happy to see that you're doing well and you're appreciated! Also, as a side, you're a valuable member of MP, and we'd like to offer you a raise! :)
This is amazing Cindy! Just like you :)
I had no doubts. 💓
I knew you would rock your new job, Cindy. You're the best. 💖
You are a great panda yourself Cindy. Kudos to you my friend.
Anything happy or exciting on the horizon?
Well done Cindy x
Go, Cindy!!! xx
Proud of you!! You've made a lot of progress.
I admire your strength while you're quite new at this job and you've had a hard time yourself. it's hard to be so vulnerable at work not knowing how people will react.. I think you did a really good job!!
hope you can have a nice lunch and go for a walk :)
Nice of you to be there for him. You're clearly very sensitive and empathetic, but be careful not to let outside situations impact your own. I think your situations give you a unique perspective to help, though! Which is so great!
So sweet of you. Typical Cindy behavior! 😊 Glad everyone is feeling better now. 💚
but he told me about what has happened in last few days and how he is really struggling. Work is being supportive but like many of us he wants to try to keep everything going. Told him it's okay to say he isn't coping and that maybe some time out
help. I'm very fond of him and it was good to be supportive, and he told me how much he appreciated it, but I also feel quite tearful. Hate to see others going through difficult times and his reactions are a lot like my own. Good that lunch is soon
Need a break myself!
Thanks, dear Pandas, for your hugs and comments. He and I both felt better by the end of the day:)
Take care of yourself Cindy. Your support of your colleague is admirable