You are not alone: I am sorry you feel so down.
I FELL THE SAME
For your sake, I wish I were that simple. Have you been getting help with this? Doing it alone is way too hard. There are a lot of people out there who have gone through what you are now and they have been able to recover over time (with help)
I went through this struggle too. I purged EVERYTHING I ate. I hated myself & was disgusted. But my life circumstances got better & I was able to stop. You will be able to also. It's just one of those rough patches of life you have to make it...
...through & you will be SO much stronger once you reach the end of the tunnel. And it will be there. Trust me. Thinking of you. xx
Same I'm so overweight for my age and I know I'm fat and I'm trying to stop it's just my Brain tells me that good helps me cope
I often feel ugly & worthless. I can usually tell myself it's my mind playing tricks on me. There is beauty inside all of us!