Even though I need money, my health is the more important, and either I will take care of myself now or never
Any help is from God, I hope to find the thing that loves to do and earn a living from it later on
(low) and maybe it will pass
I must to stay strong. Because in a week or two I will not think about him and I will want my quietness from him. It will come like every month. And instead of turning to him to help these people I turn to God to help them best
I know I really want a healthy relationship, and that's what I miss.
Well done, M! I get it. I think these thoughts will come less and less in time. That's what I've been dealing with, anyway. They become more rare.
Thank you nixiblu, and Alicia ! **
These people eventually got along, I realized that even if he had been help it would have ended the same for this time
This is how I've felt over the last two weeks.
Get a cat.
Something is wrong, time does not move, and I don't know why.
I also went back to two caffeine a day
I guess I'm sick of trying and not seeing results, so why trying
At least I slept well, I'll try to enjoy it today. Instead of getting up at seven, I got up at nine-thirty, but it's not at all bad.
Most of the day I don't care if he goes with another woman.and I just want this quiet to last. But thoughts sometimes turn over
5 because it could have been worse
There are people who want my company but when I'm with them It's not easy So I'd rather be alone
I read all the messages from H, I can't release from the inside
reason for.I'm tired of taking
Medication that don't help. I tried everything, nutrition, exercise, breathing, nothing helped. I don't have any more power. nothing the same with such pain.
This pain took away who I am. I have nothing to give. Everything they expected was not fulfilled by me. And no one understands. Because doctors tell me to live with it.
Thank you John and Jeff
On the other hand, I feel lucky. God keeps me away from H, and everything happens for the better, and I'm determined to get what I want. God wants me to have He just wants my goodness
What I had to learn was to believe in myself
H is blocked, but despite all his faults, he was always there when I felt alone.
When I answer him, I hope he will do something so good that will make me forgive him and move on, but this connection only makes me not move forward. I realized that I can't let his actions and words have the power to rule my world, he said things
that hurt me but I can decide not to give him the power to influence me.
I can say that what he said is unforgivable things I can never forgive. Things that only a bad person can say
In the meantime, I blocked him.
That's my Me M. He has no power.
Thank you all for the hugs
Thank you Brandt B 🙏
I'm in touch with him because of fear. Fear of not finding anyone, fear that I would not have someone who would always answer and help, fear that he would hurt me if I cut him off. fear
return to normal they will happen, we must break down to be built
But in recent days he was quiet and it feels good
Even though I know who I am and I'm not afraid, and I know that I have a family that will help me and people who love me, the words he said still echo and it does not pass,
I want to be at peace with everyone, even with him, but I suppose I have to defend myself first
He also takes pills, and is diagnosed with extremism and aggression, so it is even more frightening
Maybe I should ask for help from the family, I never show what I'm going through, maybe I should share them and learn to get help, in order to protect myself
If he promised to 'take revenge on you'. Call the police and get him arrested.
rest of the time is fine. I'm glad I have not met him for a very long time and I'm glad I was standing on the answer no, his suggestions to meet. Now I know my goal is to be able to break away completely, for good.
What's funny is that I found the messages by accident, I was looking for something else, and I happened to find and read how he threatened me during an argument.
A reminder to value yourself and don't let others diminish you or force you to believe that you are less and unworthy. Better things are out there. Someone worthy of you is out there. I speak from experience.
Pouring love and kindness into acid and bile still burns when you hold out your arms. I know it's hard to see the path from here to there. This is where faith and positioning yourself for the right opportunity comes into play. I believe in you.
God or the Universe puts our disembodied voices out there to share with you and
...gives you the space to carry on with dignity. We don't judge. We only wish to help show you things that are already likely in front of you. We also don't want to tell you what to do, but instead remind you of your options and other things.
Blessings of whatever give you comfort — May they be upon you.
Thank you Brandt N, it's so kind of you, I love it
This is a process for me. When I cut him off in the past, I had very difficult days, the process is internal also, there will be ups and down but the direction is clear, thank you for the reminder
also His response is terrible. When I cut him off he starts calling and threatening and then send pictures to cause jealousy, he starts to go crazy
He can choose to do things calculated to hurt you, but remember that you can choose not be hurt by them.