way any more.
I try to pass the day until next morning just pray for direction, looking for job, thats my day, and trying not to mess more with my life so just stay quiet
I need a big strong sign from God to let me know that he loves me even a little. There can be no faith without inner joy
I need a sign from God that I did not throw all those years into nothing, that I did not just waste my life, that everything I wanted came out good, that Im on the right track, that I achieved something from all this work, that I did.
so I told him, no, but he insisted, so I said I'd think about it
I will not hesitate this time to choose my happiness.
Go for it!!!! Don't doubt yourself ❤️
H was bad to me since yesterday, but I know it's hormones. Now I want to talk to him. In a few more days the hormones will pass. I will not even want to hear from him and then he will remember me. I hope this time to be strong
What are you hoping for.?
So I have to make the conversation with him and cut him off completely from my life only a complete detachment will help me move on.
He still wants me but for now I'm not his partner, and if I want to be his girlfriend then he'll leave her. But maybe he'll just live a double life where he hides two women from one another and has children from each and no one knows, scary thought
There were times when I prayed that someone would take him and he would leave me alone. So maybe it's for the best, I thank the other woman !!!!
The money from work is not enough for me and I have to pay payments
I thank God for what I have but I have no control over how I feel because it is me and I have to be true to myself, and It's ok to feel sad
Well said 👏
I keep myself from him Because he lied to me, many times, He wants to take advantage of me and tries to conquer me by talking and showing and lying, Because he knew me in a moment of weakness that I needed help and thought he could take advantage of
as much as possible today
but I have to fill up to keep working. and now it's low
I feel every time I succeed, someone comes and takes me down, if it's not H, it's someone from the family or from work.
I'm afraid God will disappoint me, but when I look back, I've been in more difficult places. today I am in a better place, from all places God took me out. I hope he does not stop now.
In my experience Hot puts through you through bed times to you can see the good times. Hand in there, terry keep your faith no matter how hard it is. And he will surprise you.
I'm an agnostic personally, but I've also always had people who'd put me down every time, starting with my mother. At some point I realized I had to stop caring what she says about my achievements. It was easier than I thought. Then I tried to find
some people who would build me up. I found those people here on Moodpanda. People who never put me down. Now I am becoming more and more independent in how I see myself. It helps me be brave.
Hope you also learn to be independent of what those people think and say about you. You are smart, and you have a good heart, and you are a real philosopher, someone who examines life and oneself constantly. An admirable trait in today's world. <3
Thank you all so much >3
Alicia B, It's funny what you wrote that I should be more independent than the opinions of others and I had a dream at night that I blame my mother for everything and I remembered the dream in all the things that made me insecure. It was as if I
were not even aware of it
also I'm not religious, I mostly believe in what I see but want to investigate the truth. I call this power God who is good, love, and that I have a purpose to find it and then reach an understanding that all religions speak of..But it's hard ..
you know he loves you, admires you and has no competitors because you know that the connection between you is rare. I had it once, someone I worked with and it did not feel like work, which always made me laugh, always encouraged me,
always made me smile. But today I'm smarter to keep it, once I ran away. But I don't know if I'll ever feel that way again.
Once I wanted to feel in love, now I want to feel confident, secure, accurate connection, good friendship, trust. and this is more love than being just in love
and not to change myself but to be whole with myself, not to think that I have to change, in order to be better, or deserving, but to accept I'm better and deserving now.
Great goal :)