Being able to calm yourself down is such a great skill. Hone it. Keep learning. Make yourself better and better, but give yourself credit for be able to do it. Well done.
Thanks John T!
Don't beat yourself up if you don't.
And it is like I make all those people to feel bad about this what I have to say. It's horrible. But.. or I'll start speak out or I won't get to live because I can't accept anymore myself being indifferent when I feel bad about things.
I think twice before I speak but still I feel like, I don't know, a bully? Definition is not covering that but being assertive is like a whole new galaxy for me and I'm lost in it. I just hope it will turned out all well. But maybe I really got lost.
I feel the same about my job.
My anxiety feels good in there. Going out is not just a matter of a notice or finding new job. It's about me with everything. But I need to get out, I fought some of my demons and there is nothing more I can do in there after five years.
If I could just change energy I spend on feeling sorry for myself to learn my things and to work my issues and stuff. No matter what I won't give up. I'm angry and scared but deep inside calm. Good, mhm.