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Binky B · 13h 5
Feeling lethargic in my hotel bed
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Vincent/Jaikob B NEW · 13h
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Natalie B · 12h
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Binky B · 3d 7
Feeling good again because we had a BBQ at our friendly hotel and I had a nice chat with French Frank about Australia. It feels good to all be together. Thank you!
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Audrey N · 22h
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Cindy M · 18h
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Binky B · 3d 2
Can't sleep. Upset, don't know why exactly... Thinking about grandma too. Feeling lonely. Desperate.
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Danny M · 24h
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Binky B · 24h 6
Internet has been very bad the last few days. Back in Bangkok now, wifi better. Goodbye Koh Chang, hello big city life. So tired. Food at Nook's :) Headache.
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Audrey N · 22h
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Binky B · 22 Mar 2015 2
My holiday romance has gone cold on me. I confronted him about it (again!) and he said he's trying to protect his feelings by deciding now to keep his distance. I'm really hurt and don't agree
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Binky B · 23 Mar 2015
with his thinking - why not make the most of it? I knew it was just a holiday romance, what a shame to waste what little time we had. He apologised but still felt the same way...
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Orchid C · 23 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 23 Mar 2015
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Jeff M · 23 Mar 2015
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Kimberley D · 23 Mar 2015
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Esther · 23 Mar 2015
o wow. so typical . I've had the same. 'let's keep distance now cause don't wanna miss u even more in the end'. I'm sorry Binky!
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James . · 23 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 23 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 23 Mar 2015
so sorry Binky - big hugs!
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Anna W · 23 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 24h
Thank you all very much for the support. Esther, yes it just seems like such a waste of life to me. I wasn't even that keen on the guy to start, then after we started something he grew cold after a few days. Strange!
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Binky B · 23 Mar 2015 6
So tired! Only had a few hours sleep and I'm hungover, still managed to go elephant trekking. Getting a well deserved early night. An extra mood point because I moved to an awesome new room!
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CAROL S NEW · 23 Mar 2015
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Jeff M · 23 Mar 2015
Bonus cool points for doing something called 'elephant trekking'! Jealous!
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James . · 23 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 23 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 23 Mar 2015
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H F · 7d
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Binky B · 24h
Thanks everyone. Jeff it was nice to ride and bathe with the elephants :)
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Binky B · 22 Mar 2015 6
Up early for another jungle trek, I want to tire myself out again
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Melody T · 22 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 22 Mar 2015
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mik W · 22 Mar 2015
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Audri G · 22 Mar 2015
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Esther · 22 Mar 2015
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H F · 23 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 20 Mar 2015 6
Feeling a little hormonal. Had a good day drinking with Seb and company, went for another walk on the beach with Donnie. Got Thai SIM card and ate lots of prawn tempura and black pepper chicken.
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Binky B · 20 Mar 2015
Feeling restless, playful, mildly aggressive.
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Binky B · 20 Mar 2015
I love this place
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Jeff M · 20 Mar 2015
Sounds like a lovely day! And that dinner sounds amazing!
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Sarah M · 20 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 20 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 21 Mar 2015
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H F · 21 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 21 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 19 Mar 2015 6
Feeling mixed. Quite wired, had a busy couple of days - boat trip and trekking. My mind is over-stimulated so I'm finding it difficult to relax. Walking along the beach with Donnie; talking on hammock
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Sarah M · 20 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 20 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 21 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 21 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 20 Mar 2015 7
Sitting on the beach in Koh Chang. Where I'm staying is more sociable and I've been doing more activities, this makes me feel good. Making up for doing less in Lanta.
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Melody T · 20 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 20 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 16 Mar 2015 6
Successfully out of bed at 6.10am, having had five hours sleep. I was actually having quite nice, albeit unusual, dreams. Fought the urge to slide back into sleep. Off to Koh Chang today...
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Marc C · 16 Mar 2015
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Sarah M · 16 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 16 Mar 2015
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Melody T · 16 Mar 2015
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James . · 16 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 16 Mar 2015
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Jodie A · 16 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 20 Mar 2015
Thank you :)
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015 5
Tired, 24 hours travel. Language barriers can be tough. I've got my stuff and I'm in the hotel now. Friend is here with his latest Thai girlfriend. Feel slightly alone. I will practise Thai!
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015
We were going to go to the museum but my friend and his friend are too tired. It's okay I will shower, relax and organise my stuff ready for tomorrow.
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Melody T · 15 Mar 2015
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James . · 15 Mar 2015
wow! You are amazing Binky - so much energy! *Hugs*
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Michelle M · 15 Mar 2015
that sounds very awesome, good idea to get yourself settled in :)
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Catherine J · 15 Mar 2015
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Nini P · 15 Mar 2015
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Kate W · 15 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 15 Mar 2015
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Jeff M · 15 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 15 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 15 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 15 Mar 2015
Glad you'll get some rest Binky - museum will still be there! Well done for trying Thai - must be difficult. Have a good time!
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Binky B · 16 Mar 2015
Thanks James, Michelle and Cindy! I sometimes struggle to get things done, thankfully these last couple of days has improved. Thai is an interesting language, it's always good to know some basic words. Thanks to all for the hugs :0)
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Binky B · 12 Mar 2015 6
D gave me two lifts into town today, so glad for her help, we got things done. Boots photos, international driving permit. Most importantly, burying gran's ashes at her favourite church. RIP grandma.
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jasmine H · 14 Mar 2015
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Fiona C · 14 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 14 Mar 2015
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Cindy M · 14 Mar 2015
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Esther · 14 Mar 2015
<3 your granny would be proud of you
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H F · 15 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015
Thanks everyone! Esther, you are right, she would - she was a nice lady.
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Binky B · 14 Mar 2015 5
In four hours I'm going to be on the coach to Heathrow, heading back to Thailand. Crazy! Only just finished packing.
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jasmine H · 14 Mar 2015
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H F · 15 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 11 Mar 2015 5
Gran's funeral went well; my mum came with her social worker, two of my friends came as did my foster mum. RIP gran xxx. I feel rushed now as I still have lots to do before I fly back out to Thailand.
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Dominik S · 11 Mar 2015
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Kara S · 12 Mar 2015
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Lauren I · 12 Mar 2015
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Lauren I · 12 Mar 2015
Take care of yourself Binkybear *big hugs*
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Esther · 12 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015
Thank you everyone :0)
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Binky B · 15 Mar 2015
Thanks Lauren, I will *hugs*
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Binky B · 11 Mar 2015 5
#justwoke learning how to play backgammon
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Natalie B · 11 Mar 2015
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bayan A NEW · 11 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 11 Mar 2015
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Esther · 11 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015 5
Doing okay, I've organised my papers at last. Still work to do tidying my room. My foster mum was watching One Born Every Minute, I am feeling squeamish so didn't really enjoy watching it - stressful.
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Anna W · 11 Mar 2015
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Kara S · 11 Mar 2015
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Tasha S · 11 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015 3
#Annoyed and #impatient and just so damn #irritable. Sick of all this #paperwork. I don't even know if I can successfully carry out #probate - I've never done this before but I see no other choice.
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015
(Interspersed with apathy)
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J J · 10 Mar 2015
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Anna W · 11 Mar 2015
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H F · 11 Mar 2015
I'm sure You can Binky <3
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Esther · 11 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 11 Mar 2015
Thanks J J, Toni, Anna, HF and Esther, for your support.
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015 4
Sleepy, low mood
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Natalie B · 10 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015 2
Just spoke to my half brother for the first time in years, to tell him about grandma. He said I was just doing it as a formality and he called me a boring, stuck in the mud person - he doesn't know me
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
I made a mistake in the post so I deleted it and started again, sorry to have deleted any of your hugs!
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
He clearly has deep set mental health issues, and seems very resentful. I can't begin to describe how hurtful and dismissive he was over the phone. Yet he wonders why I shut him out of my life.
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
I hadn't really thought it through, but I was open to the possibility of giving it another chance. He tried to make contact with my mum but she hasn't responded yet and I don't know if she will.
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
I was honest with him that the reason I 'shut him out' was because I didn't want to deal with any more mental health issues in my family, and that it wasn't his fault - I didn't blame him, I just couldn't cope with more hurt - that's why I stopped
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
our contact four years ago, when he started being rude to me and preaching. His adoptive mother seems really nice, she heard what he was saying to me - she asked him to get off the phone because he was 'running up the phone bill' (i.e. running on)
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
I was so upset, thankfully his adoptive mum got my number and called me back to apologise for putting him on the home - she had thought it would cheer him up. Apparently he is like that with everyone, he regularly tells his adoptive parents he hates
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
them (he is at least 40yrs old). Apparently he decided to come off his sickness benefits a while ago, so he couldn't pay his rent and was kicked out, homeless. So he called his adoptive parents and asked to stay there. He thinks he is a prophet and
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
he won't accept any help. He has no friends and spends time on the Internet all night and sleeps during the day. I admire his parents for their courage and sympathy, they were looking forward to a quiet retirement... I hope it all works out
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Tasha S · 09 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015
Thank you :)
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015 5
Stayed up until 3am last night because I was crying. I kept thinking of my grandma and how I miss her. Slept in late because I was tired, so I missed meeting my friend. Luckily she wasn't alone.
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Jeff M · 09 Mar 2015
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H F · 09 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015
Thanks for the hugs
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Binky B · 08 Mar 2015 4
Feeling queasy all of a sudden on this bus journey home. Maybe it's just indigestion? Feeling sad, too.
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Fiona C · 09 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015 3
What'll I do, when you, are far away... and I am blue; what'll I do?
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Fiona C · 09 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
thank you Fiona, James, Tasha and Anna
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H F · 09 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 10 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 07 Mar 2015 6
Taking in the views through my cheap binoculars at Hampstead Heath on this fine day.
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James . · 08 Mar 2015
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Esther · 08 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
Thank you Hames, Holly, Esther and Anna
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
*James
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Binky B · 08 Mar 2015 6
Chilled. Going to eat Ethiopian food.
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James . · 08 Mar 2015
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Elsa A · 08 Mar 2015
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Esther · 08 Mar 2015
I love that. enjoy!!
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Anna W · 08 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 09 Mar 2015
Thank you James, Elsa, Esther and Anna. It was really nice, as good, if not better than the food I had in country :)
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Binky B · 06 Mar 2015 7
Had a great day at Minsmere nature reserve. Saw a Green Woodpecker, Shelducks, an array of garden birds and some Avocets... I will sleep like a baby tonight. Off to London tomorrow Morning to see G.
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Anna W · 06 Mar 2015
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Esther · 07 Mar 2015
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Esther · 07 Mar 2015
sounds awesome
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Binky B · 05 Mar 2015 6
Gone out with Davina for all you can eat Chinese then for a free tour of the Cathedral. Glad to be doing things.
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Christina E · 06 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 06 Mar 2015 6
Slightly less sleep than normal and slightly hungover. Spent the night at my friend's house for a change of scenery.
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Anna W · 06 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 01 Mar 2015 6
Ripping CDs to take with me when I go travelling again. Last time I didn't get around to sorting out my music, so at least this time round I'll have something!
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Keshav B · 01 Mar 2015
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Binky B · 27 Feb 2015 6
Trying to go through more of my grandma's stuff but feeling unfocused. looking through slides with a hand held slide viewer was unexpectedly rewarding.
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James . · 28 Feb 2015
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Michelle M NEW · 28 Feb 2015
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Daisy . · 28 Feb 2015
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Jeff M · 28 Feb 2015
Thinking of you as you go through this difficult time... I'm glad you're remembering her fondly and that you and your family are doing ok!
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Jeff M · 28 Feb 2015
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Anna W · 28 Feb 2015
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Cindy M · 28 Feb 2015
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Cindy M · 28 Feb 2015
My grandmother had one of those too; I used to love playing with it. Glad you're finding some happy moments, it's a bittersweet task
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